I have been doing scat sex with my boyfriend. It’s revolting and mortifying if my friends or family found out [MF]

I have been dating this older guy named Rick for a year. I’m currently in graduate school and don’t make a lot of money. He moved me into his condo and he basically is supporting me until I finish my masters program. I have two semesters left.

Because of this, I felt it was my duty to please him when he told me he was into really kinky sex. At first it was just run of the mill BDSM stuff like whips, chains, collar/leash, denying orgasms, etc. He enjoyed being a dom and preferred that I was a sub which I actually enjoyed.

Then he started to get me into rimming which I didn’t like at first but I dealt with it as long as his ass was clean. Then around mid June, he came home from the gym and forced me to rim his sweaty gross asshole. I felt sick but I did it because I had no choice.

A few days after that, he called me into the bathroom and told me to suck his dick while he was pooping on the toilet. He told me it would turn him on. I thought it was gross but I did it anyway. After he finished pooping, he forced me to lick his shitty asshole clean. It was revolting.

From there, it has gotten 1000000 times worse. I came home from a meeting with my professor to a disgusting scat porn video playing on our living room tv. It was some German man shitting on multiple women’s faces. It was revolting. My boyfriend sat me down next to him and declared that was what he wanted for his upcoming bday present. To shit on my face and body. He said scat sex has always turned him on and that all his previous girlfriends eventually came around to liking it. He called it the “ultimate submission” and told me he was going to hold his shit for two days prior to make sure he had a huge load.

I honestly can’t believe I agreed to it but I really had no choice. He pays all the bills and pays for my school. I have like $250 in my bank account. He has me as an authorized user on his AMEX account and I use that card for gas, groceries, shopping, booking trips we go on, etc. he never gives me cash.

I let him shit on me for his bday but I got really fucked up beforehand. Tons of shots of vodka, cocaine, and some weed and Xanax so I could just zone out. It was still disgusting and I ended up puking twice which seemed to turn him on even more.

Ever since then he shits on me at least 2x a week. We never have normal sex anymore. It’s always me licking his asshole until he shits in my mouth then he pisses on me, smears it around etc. not once does he ever fuck me. Sometimes he will let me blow him but it’s always shitting and pissing now.

I know this sounds insane and yes it truly is but I am sick of it. It’s disgusting what he is doing but I love him so much. Is there any world where we can be together without the scat sex??? I’m at my wits end. The smell is very hard to get out of my skin and hair. I have to figuratively scrub my skin raw for hours in the shower after each session. My anxiety is through the roof!! I don’t know what to do anymore. I need a plan and I need it ASAP because I am sick of his shit, literally and figuratively. I love him though so maybe we can work out?

I am so so paranoid of my family and friends finding out about this and disowning me. I feel like scum.

TLDR: my boyfriend of one year is heavily into into scat porn and scat sex and he shits on me constantly and it’s disgusting to me. I want him to stop but I don’t want our relationship to end because I love him. If my family and friends found out they would probably never speak to me again.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/9c0w1p/i_have_been_doing_scat_sex_with_my_boyfriend_its

8 comments

  1. Each to there own but since there is a huge power imbalance here and you don’t enjoy it and I would try talking to him about stopping if he does not willing stop that means he doesn’t care about you and you should leave.

  2. Maybe you are stuck financially, but get the fuck out of that situation. Even a two week gap away from that freak will give you the perspective that you need.

    RUN! Seek help from friends, family, and, if need be, Police.

    Run! Run! Run!

  3. He’s abusing you. It can be hard to see when you slowly work up to it, but what he’s forcing you to do is wrong on a deep level.

  4. This is an abusive relationship, you are being forced into doing this shit.

    You need to tell your close friends/family that you are in an abusive relationship, and ask for help. No one will judge you.

  5. If my choice was ^this or going back to serving people at dennys on the night shift? I would be wearing that apron and serving coffee with a smile on my face for the rest of my life. There is no master degree on earth I would eat shit for . Sorry, but this is sick

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