I knew it was wrong.
I don’t trust anyone who ever says otherwise. People don’t really lose their head and become overwhelmed by lust and lose control. We all know exactly what we’re doing. And we make a decision to do bad things, even when we know we’re crossing a line. It’s not that we can’t help ourselves. We just choose to act and worry about rationalizing our behavior later.
I can come up with excuses. Just like everyone else. It had been SO LONG since I’d been touched. I got caught up in the moment. Although I’d been a wild girl who ended up with a baby when I was still a teenager, I’d spent at the past 25 years on my best behavior–raising Lance, going to PTA meetings, working hard, and then helping raise Lance raise his stepson, Luke.
But those are just excuses.
Like I said, I knew it was wrong.
I could have stopped myself.
I just didn’t want to.