I’m a little in disbelief today. I read the Snapchat message a dozen times, each time thinking it can’t be right. How? How could it be real, I was having the time of my life. As a recently divorced man, I was just starting to live after years in a dead bedroom. The ride, as short as it was, was a beautiful and amazing roller coaster. The exhilaration and youth I felt while pleasuring these women will be something I always remember fondly.
Last September I decided to get a vasectomy, I already have two great kids in their teens, my wife and I didn’t want anymore. Flash forward to January, my wife surprises me with a divorce. I understood her reasoning, and I respected her wishes. We parted ways and we split custody of the children 50/50. At 45 I realized I had not been single since I was 21. I was nervous to get back in the dating game, unsure of myself, and if I was desirable. My views on my age and if I would be desired all changed, and changed quickly. I was unsure of where to start over at, online dating was never a thing when I was younger. With some reluctance and a bit of coaxing from a friend, I signed up for Tinder. The options and selection for men over 40, hell 30 is very limited. It’s filled with women divorced multiple times or women with multiple young children. I wanted stability, what I found was instability and a lot of fun.