The day I realized I was turned on by the idea of my wife having sex with another man and the day it was confirmed when I watched an old sex tape of hers.
So a little back story, when my wife and I met we were in our 20’s, she had a lot more experience than me in the bed and we were quite honest about our pasts with each other. Even though it bothered me deep down I promised I wouldn’t hold it against her if she was completely honest with me. Through out our relationship I would get upset if we were ever speaking about a sexual act or some sort of scene in a porn and she eluded to trying it or having “done that before”. I remember specifically the exact time that changed. We were in bed watching some porn about to have sex and there was a position that was really hot to me but because of my size I was not able to do it. She confirmed that it was a really good position and it felt good. She kind of blushed when saying it too, but for the first time I wasn’t upset, instead I was really turned on. I didn’t say much in that moment because it was a new feeling and I didn’t want to get ahead of myself. The position for those who are curious was spoon fucking, where the dude is behind. Now I’m not super small and I can do the position but it definitely doesn’t look like it does in the porn. I have to position myself way off her body and can’t squeeze her into me the way the well hung dude in the porn could.