A few months ago, I was in a sexual funk with my boyfriend. We used to have really good sex but as we went on, it became less frequent and less effort was put in on both sides. It wasn’t a lack of attraction but rather life getting in the way. We were living apart, so I at least was able to use toys to keep my sexual frustration at bay. I started venturing into porn and started to like it more and more, and it led to new and steamier fantasies.
Weeks went by and things seemed more and more distant with my bf so I decided to take a risk. I sent a scene I couldn’t stop thinking about to him and he “read” it for about an hour. I was dying of nervousness and anticipation. Would he like it? Would he think its weird and just end things for good? He finally texted back and it said “is this what you want?” (We are both white, it was a video of black male/white female). I instantly got drenched, I didn’t think he would respond this way and to be honest I didn’t even think of ever doing something this. But I thought there was a reason I couldn’t stop thinking about the scene and since at this point, it seemed like I had nothing to lose, I said “yes, I cant get the scene out of my head”.