So there’s that line that’s always used when someone gets caught doing something risky, usually sexually related like cheating on a partner, that they wanted to get caught. They pushed things too far and took too many risks but were half expecting to get busted and that was kind of what they wanted. I can assure you, in this instance I had no intention of getting caught, ever.
I’ll put my hand up and say that having a marriage with almost no sex in it for a long time has driven me deeper and deeper into some of the kinkier parts of the internet. I’ve fantasised about a ton of different things; some kinky, some super straight, many or most involving my wife. I think it’s kept me sane AND I’ve never acted out on any of the fantasies or even been temped too; that feels like a line too far to cross. Something I often come back to is gay, guy on guy (on guy) porn. Don’t know what it is but once or twice a year I get an urge to watch some gay porn and masturbate to it. It *scratches an itch* so to speak and then I’m not interested anymore.