Like most 20 year old virgins, I was absolutely desperate to get laid. It’s not that I didn’t want to earlier, I was just really terrible with girls, mainly because I was incapable being forward. I was perfectly social, and had lots of friends. I just wasn’t getting any.
Anyways, at this time there was a group of friends I was hanging out with regularly. At some point, one of the guys in the group started seeing a girl that I’ll call Kristin who started hanging out with the group. She was 19. She was cool, she partied and drank with us, and one night we were staying at this guy’s cabin a little bit out of town for the weekend. We were all getting hammered, and Kristin ended up making out with and eventually going to bed with another girl at the party. Sometime in the night (it is all hazy because of the alcohol) I somehow ended up making out with Kristin in the bathroom, and she told me she really wanted to fuck me, but she couldn’t because she was still with her boyfriend. “I want to but I can’t” is all I remember her saying. The rest of the night is basically a blur.