II
Things were great with my girlfriend and I forced myself to get into a more spiritual driven life. I Decided to ignore the material world and the life of the body and seek my real identity in a way that excluded virtual sex. I wanted to know how I could redeem myself from the vain glory of my overly sexualized digital life. I started this redemption by telling my girlfriend a half truth about what I did. I told her I talked to girls who sent me pictures of her body and she did not talk to me for a month. I still to this day don’t know if it was a moment of weakness to tell her this or if my spiritual path would demand this action from me, but a big weight was released from my shoulders. I feared losing her forever and my mind was tortured for a month, but in the end I felt better because she got some revenge on me after what I did to her.