I really really was the good girl. I mean I always liked sex but I never did it with someone who wasn’t my long-term partner. I rarely sent them any dirty pics, I was never the one to initiate the sex, rarely spoke dirty, almost never wore anything revealing except maybe on holidays, just a regular, ordinary, boring girl.
Now that took a turn that came out of nowhere. And its not like I broke up with my ex and went slut mode straight away. It’s been over a year now. I had 0, seriously ZERO sexual intercourses with men in that time. I went on a few dates and realised I don’t feel like serious relationships right now. I went out partying but didn’t fuck any stranger in the mens toilet (despite masturbating to that fantasy like a dozen times, wearing my sluttiest dress and really trying to break my fears). So no, that’s not your “hehe I broke up with ex and went goblin mode” story. I went “I don’t think I’ll have sex ever again” mode for months.