We play the cards we are given. This has always been my motto in life.
During my 20s, I started experiencing difficulties in maintaining an erection. After seeing a few doctors, I was diagnosed with a venous leak. This is a condition that doesn’t affect my libido at all but makes it difficult for my penis to stay erect for too long and it’s something that progresses as you age. Needless to say, this was a kick in the balls for my ego. This problem was aggravated by the fact that I had come to expect failure. Everytime I got sexual with a woman, I had that fear that my penis would fail me and so it often did. This made me start avoiding relationships altogether.
Meanwhile my best friend who is a couple of years younger than I was quite the opposite. Always the ladiesman. Everytime we went to a party he would effortlessly hook up with someone and even though he is a player at heart, he has that kind of personality that girls just love. Most of the girls he was with were perfectly being fine in being a NSA fling. I was always amazed on hoow things just turned out for him. I’ll admit that I was often a bit jealous as well.