I like sex, who doesn’t? But I LOVE getting fucked. Absolutely getting railed, pounded and used to much that I’m getting my brains fucked out. Which is appropriate, because I become this total airhead when I’m getting fucked. Call it dick drunk, cum drunk, bimbofication, but I turn into this impressionable stupid slut.
I’m an educated woman. Went to University, have a degree, run a successful Yoga practice. But when I’m having sex – no getting fucked – I lose all sense of purpose and opinion. It’s something about being used, being this trophy fuck toy for the guy that is so…. rewarding. There’s conflicting emotions: shame and pride. I hate that I’m turning into this trophy slut, but I love it so much. It’s like a drug or high for me.
The more degrading and misogynistic the fucking, the more my mind becomes “mush”. Mush as in, impressionable, pliable, encouragable. My sexual inhibitions gone, any self worth (apart from being a slut), gone. My only role, is to serve and please him, in any fashion he wants or desires. I’m not sure how to describe it – it’s not mind control or anything. For me, when I’m getting fucked, it’s my moment of clarity. My realization that I want and need to be this sexual Stepford slut.