This happened in March of 2018
Over many years I’ve had a recurring fantasy about being with men and/or trans women. I would push this away, since “I’m a straight male – not interested in that, and married with a child…” and all the reasons I wasn’t gay. While at the same time, 95% of all my male friends were gay.
Over the last few years, these fantasies happened more often, and stronger. A couple weeks ago, my lovely wife and I had a conversation that changed my life. In that conversation, she helped me come to the realization that I like men and women (and at least trans women, if not all trans probably). She had known for years, but never wanted to push. She told me that while she would support me in exploring this, and I could talk to her about it, she wasn’t interested in exploring it with me. So, I was free to explore outside our marriage.
From this conversation, I felt at ease in a way I haven’t in a very long time. I started watching the things I’d been avoiding for years. I kept checking my reaction to different videos, pictures and writings. Come to find out, a lot of it turned me on.