I had no intention of ever going back. All these months later, and [the Nicki Minaj Experience](https://www.reddit.com/r/rhonnie14/comments/bdceon/premiere_i_was_hired_to_write_nicki_minajs/) still haunted me. Still lingered in my dreams and nightmares. Ash and I were only there for a few weeks but what felt like years given the sexual mania.
I felt exhausted from sex both pleasurable and taboo. All of it enjoyable even through the pain. Of course, by the time Nicki let us go, I was more than ready to leave her L.A. pink palace behind for our cozy apartment in Albany, Georgia. Even if Ashley wasn’t. And even if I never did get a biography out of it.
Being a newly-freed sex slave did present some problems. No longer could I rely on the Queen spoiling us. Soon, my book money ran dry. My series of odd jobs from [911 trainee](https://www.reddit.com/r/rhonnie14/comments/bxqm1e/premiere_this_is_my_scariest_911_call_and_it/) to [7th grade English teacher](https://www.reddit.com/r/rhonnie14/comments/cscing/premiere_i_found_a_disturbing_note_in_my_middle/) were predictable disasters. Here I was back to being a deadbeat horror writer. My small, loyal fanbase glad to see me churning out stories… Even if I was struggling to make any real cash. And on top of everything else, my ass was still sore heading into December.