For quite a while I didn’t like to talk about anything sexual with my friends or partners. I would say people were hot, but I never wanted to go into detail with it. I learned later on that I was like that because I was too scared of the way people would take me by knowing my own thoughts, temptations, and turn ons. I thought mine were too out there, and that people would see me as too much of a freak for them. However, this story is one of the first times I began to come to the realization that I get off more when there are others in the room as well as a little of CNC (***disclaimer, he fully had consent. I was aware of everything and okay with everything, but once I discovered CNC, I learned this fell slightly into the CNC category). I get super turned on when I know others are in the room and they’re either sleeping or they are oblivious to what I’m doing. I still enjoy when people are in the room and know what’s going on, and I really get enjoyment out of others watching.
A couple of years back, I went on a cruise with my best friend. We were with her parents, and my friend and I had our own room. We made two stops on our cruise, and I wanted to make the best of everything. I had not been on a cruise before, and I wanted to experience everything I could. My best friend and I did everything together. On the cruise, we made a plan for everyday of what we would do. On our third day, we were at sea going to the next port. Our plan was to sit out at the pools all day and make friends. For the first two days of our cruise we stayed busy hopping from activities on ship, swimming, laying out, and going to the parties, that we didn’t really make many friends. We socialized to those around us, but we never ran into anyone again, nor met anyone that left us an impression to want to meet them again.
For our day, we grabbed sunscreen and a drink and sat by the main pool on the ship. There were two pools on our ship. One on the front end of the boat where many were to layout or swim, and the one in the middle with slides and a di. This pool was filled with more people our age. Me and her sat poolside and enjoyed the sun. It wasn’t long before two guys swam up right beside us. Read more »