This is a bit different from my last story. While mutual pleasure is important, for me this experience was all about the dynamic, which was callous and beautiful, but not particularly nurturing or attentive.
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When quarantine began I was in a totally different city and bored out of my mind. I began streaming myself playing chess on RPAN, and had about 15 people who would watch me daily, while others would filter through. I had very little going on in my life and was basically waiting (and hoping) for college to start again so I could be in New York, so I started each day with a 7am stream and, aside from small workouts, walks, and grocery shopping, would stream ALL day. There was one viewer who would almost always be there, and started calling me “chess dad” on stream. At one point I mentioned I was in Florida and she said she was too. I thought that was interesting but nothing more, and the stream ended.
A PM pops up, essentially saying, “hey, I swear I’m not some sweaty old man, my photo is real. I’m in Florida, and here’s my instagram! Let me know.”