I'm laying in bed and my body and mind are filled with nervous excitement about my trip to Las Vegas tomorrow. For the second time in my life I've agreed to have sex for money.
My first experience I was desperate and naive. I outlined this experience in a recent post.
But this time I'm not naive. I know what to expect. What is expected of me. What will be done to me. What I will do. I know how my body reacted before and how the show pushed my body and mind to its limits. And I anticipate its reaction this time.
This time will not be like before when 8 men, guys bigger than I'd ever been with, took me through a sexual adventure that I will never forget. One which paid me over $70,000 for handling their barrage of sex. One that left me lost, overwhelmed and blissfully used sexually in the most extreme experience of my life. This time I've been offered and agreed to have sex with half the number as before. So for a period of about 90 minutes, I will be with 4 guys at once in what I'm told will be a sexual frenzy. Over 250 people will be there to watch me and the guys chosen for me paying more money than I can even comprehend to watch us. To watch me. It still boggles my mind that I'm a part of this or worthy. I'm not the main event as I was before. An experience I'm not sure I could handle again anyway. Another girl will be the one offered up to the club and those who pay so much to watch.