For a long time, I have had a fantasy of being permanently blinded and disfigured to be used as a sexual object. Obviously, I don’t want to actually do this (I like my life as it is very much!), but I finally got to do something that really scratched that itch.
Through friends of friends from my BDSM community, I arranged a 24 hour experience. It started in my house last Saturday morning as I put on blacked out swim goggles and then a bandana blindfold over that. It was very effective; I couldn’t see anything at all. I left my key under my mat, and allowed myself to be silently led out of the back door and driven away. The people picking me up were people I tangentially knew, but the understanding was that everyone I interacted with after this point would be a total stranger.
I was in the car for what felt like about half an hour. Then I was led into a building and handed off to another person with a much stronger grip. I was stripped of my clothes and taken to some soft surface. It felt like maybe a futon mattress on the ground? The person picked up my legs and suspended them (without the rest of my body being lifted up) in some kind of rope contraption– I was scared, but I also knew that everyone involved was vetted and experienced in BDSM and knew their way around a rope. I was given a safeword and instructed that I could piss right there when I had to, and that no more words would be spoken to me. From then on, I would be considered a piece of fuck furniture. This turned me on so much I felt like I was going to come without even being touched.
It felt like three hours went by in silence. I felt alone in the room, but I knew (again because of safe BDSM practices) that I was being watched. I pissed a couple of times during this waiting period. Then, guests started to arrive. They engaged in the typical chit-chat of any old party, but before long, hands were on me, grabbing at my tits and pinching my nipples. They waited a while to touch my pussy, but when I started to piss one more time, someone put their face right over it while flicking my clit with their tongue. It felt like a woman’s face and tongue (smooth and not very forceful), but I could be wrong. This was the catalyzing event for the rest of the fucking. Starting at that point, there was almost always at least one person engaged with me physically. I was fucked in all three holes by men. I tried to keep count, but I eventually let go and wanted to just be lost in the moment of it. My fingers were used to stimulate women, often with a man’s hand controlling mine. Condoms were used in my pussy and ass (not in my mouth), but guys came all over me. I’m sure I took at least 10-15 loads all over my face, tits, and stomach. I was pissed on several times.
I heard people slowly leave and say goodbye. One of the hottest elements of it to me was that no one ever acknowledged or talked about me, nor was any of the party conversation sexual. This made me feel so used and not like a human being, and I loved it. After the last guests left, there was another period that felt like several hours where nothing happened. Very embarrassingly, I had to take a shit during this time. I thought about calling out my safeword, since this wasn’t part of my initial fantasy, but I decided to just go for it so that I could finish out my whole experience without ever breaking “character” or suspending the fantasy of being rendered inhuman. I allowed myself to excrete, completely humiliated by the idea that someone was almost definitely watching me.
Eventually, I was unchained and picked up. I was put in what felt like the backseat of a car, still naked, and a blanket was thrown over me. After the drive, I was carried directly to my bathtub. Once I heard the screen door close downstairs, I took my blindfold off. Inspecting my body, I was covered in dried cum and was very (happily) sore. I had some dried shit on my leg, which gain, was purely humiliating and not hot– no hate to people who are into scat but it is so not for me. I showered and went and got my phone, seeing it was 11:00 AM.
I am definitely going to do more things like this. It will also be unbelievably hot to be at events in the BDSM scene here and know that there might be people there who know they have fucked me, but I don’t know it. Hope you enjoyed reading about my insane experience! This was very cathartic for me to do, as it was the first time I was able to really simulate IRL something I have fantasized about for so long. Don’t worry, the guy who set this all up for me is being thanked. I am his to use orally at a moment’s notice for the next three months, barring obvious stuff like work. He’s already used my mouth twice since the scene :)