Nita’s lips are on my neck. Her teeth and her tongue are so seductive they send chills down my spine. I think about the last empty condom box I threw away this morning. Her little purple birth control compact, punched out and emptied at the end of last month. We’ve both been unable to stomach going into a pharmacy since then. I can feel her hand making its way down to the button on my jeans.
It’s been more of a sweatpants (or anything that can be quickly removed, really) kind of a lockdown, but I thought jeans might stop us from doing anything stupid today. But her mouth leaves a red welt on my neck; my cock tries to burst out of my pants, and her fingers try to help it — the thrill makes the blood pound in my ears. I might just be able to calm us down for now, but failing eventually is inevitable. We’ll be on the brink again in an hour. I let myself give in. Today’s reasonably safe. It’ll be fine. *I’ll pull out,* I lie to myself. I hear the zipper go and I feel her dive between my legs before I register her lips leaving my neck. How did I get here?