Author: FlowingMonsoon

I accidentally conditioned myself to get horny at my desk so now I can’t study [F]

I used to study from the desk in my room, but I can’t anymore. I will sit on it and immediately there is a Pavlov response where I get far too horny and want to touch myself. I get too unfocused and get no work done.

This issue started when I started touching myself during my online lectures. Everyone had their cameras off and was muted. Some live lectures can be so slow, the lecturers take so long to explain so my attention span can waver. I start daydreaming about more fun things like being gangbanged instead.

So I started masturbating to keep it entertaining! I did this sporadically at first but then I became pretty good at rubbing my cunt and cumming while simultaneously listening to lectures on topics such as simultaneity.

But this has become a problem now when revising for exams. I need to be focused now, but I try to revise and my hands waver and I get so distracted touching myself. I try resist but it’s so difficult, my cunt still drips and calls to me. Read more »

I have no privacy in my household so I secretly fuck my ass in the bathroom at 2am [F]

I share a room with my sister. I have a lock but my family don’t respect it – it’s a child lock that can be opened from the outside, so my family will knock once then immediately open the door. I hate the lack of privacy.

I’ve had so many instances where a family member will knock. I shout “I am changing!” to hold them off whilst there’s a plug in my ass that I’m quickly pulling out, and they open the door and I must pull covers over my nude lap and keep a neutral expression when they barge in. They question why I lock my door for so long. Sometimes my sister later questions why I’m in the same clothes…

It got so stressful. One time I tried in the living room late at night. On the comfort of my coach instead. At 1am – excellent idea right, surely no one’s going to come in? For safety I kept my clothes on and covered myself with a blanket as I put a remote control vibe inside myself and came away. I did this for a few weeks but then my dad woke up and came downstairs to berate me for being awake so late. I didn’t get my vibe off in time. He walked in, made eye contact with me before I quickly stopped it on my phone. I hope he didn’t hear the vibrations. I just stressed about that, thinking “did he hear it? Did he not?” as he told me off for being awake at that time. Read more »

[F] I’m a muslim who is desperate to be slutty and has made a slut bucket list UPDATE

Hi!! So it’s been two years since I made that first post and I felt an update was due.

Honestly I was initially planning to post more and track my journey through overcoming my sexual repression, but I got so overwhelmed I slinked away. I was scared someone I know might find out (even now..). And partly the sexual shame and overthinking held me back from broadcasting it. Still, regularly opening this account and touching to the messages I got….the response was amazing. Words of encouragement from so many people both really turned me on and really encouraged me. I thought people are deserved an update.

I feel so much more in control of my sexuality than when I wrote that and I am so happy about the progression. I do feel like I’m developing into a full slut. And I will continue!

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The old bucket list:
– Omegle challenge X
– Give a blowjob
– Post lingerie pictures online X
– Recieve oral
– Eat a cunt out
– Make out with a guy X
– Make out with a girl X
– Be seen naked in person X
– See a man naked in person X
– See a woman naked in person (in sexual context) X Read more »

I [F] masturbated on the bus whilst surrounded by people

I often masturbate in public. Because dammit I’m horny and nothings going to hold me back. Also doing it in public is hot..

In this instance, I was horny on the bus and desperate to touch but had a while before I’d be out. People were standing a bit further away and facing my way. There was a lady across the aisle who could see all of me if she looked over. I was wary about these people but so so desperate. The bus was bumpy so I crossed my legs and grinded, letting the bumps work their magic. It was good but I wanted more, so I put my phone in between my legs and grinded against that, glancing over at people to make sure tbey weren’t looking and slowing down if I thought they might. If anyone looked over I would have looked ridiculous, humping my phone with my legs crossed. I thought audio porn would make it more fun so decided to pull out r/gonewildaudio and listened to some erotic audio about being a filthy good girl. It was so exciting looking at people as I listened to filthy things in my ears. I kept checking the volume as it was so loud in my ears and I worried others may hear. Read more »

Stripping for strangers on Omegle for the first time 20[F]

As I mentioned in previous post, I’ve been very sexually repressed my entire life and have struggled with showing people my body (even in basic ways like with semi tight jeans). And in person, no one has ever seen me naked. I decided to make a slut bucket list to slowly embrace my sluthood and do more and more slutty things.

One of these things was stripping for strangers on omegle, inspired by a challenge suggestion on r/stupidslutsclub.

I went onto omegle at night, when everyone else at home was asleep. I felt nervous and uncertain, and I really really wanted to strip. But because of my nerves I decided I’d be happy if I could even just grope my tits over my clothes for today. That was my goal for that night.

I’ve gone on omegle in the past and I have been annoyed with the constant flailing dicks. Even when I went on it this particular night with the intention of putting on a show, the dicks annoyed me. This night I felt nervous and so the obvious horny men felt like far too much to jump into straight away. So I skipped past all of the dicks. Read more »

Fucking vision – Masturbating with anything and everything 20[F]

I’m convinced I could masturbate with anything. I’ve masturbated with far too much that I wasnt meant to because of being so desperate for pleasure. But living with a muslim family so obviously not being allowed to date or buy sex toys. So I have developed quite an eye for finding things to get off with.

I have previously referred to it as ‘fucking vision’, where I scan the room to find anything I could derive pleasure from. Here’s a review of some things I’ve masturbated with that I shouldn’t have. I’ve organised by topic and rating.

**Insertions** Read more »

[F] I’m a muslim who is desperate to be slutty and has made a slut bucket list

I’ve grown up in a muslim household. So sexuality is seen as super taboo and I feel a lot of shame around it. My parents used to shame me for not wearing a scarf. And also shame me for even the outline of my boobs being visible through my clothes! They dont do this anymore as they saw it did nothing. But despite ‘rebelling’ in these small ways, anything actually sexual used to make me feel ashamed. Hell even wearing tight jeans and feeling eyes on me made me feel uncomfortable.

Despite all this I’d secretly be sexual in private alone. I couldn’t help it. I was so horny all the time and thought that I was broken ..i’d masturbate with anything and everything I could get my hands on. Seriously. Put me in any room and I will find multiple things i can use to masturbate. I used to play a game where id scan the room with ‘fucking vision’. Id seek out things to suck, or fuck, or rub against. Or to get pleasure in some other way from. Most bizarre included a fidget spinner. I worried that I have a masturbation addiction. That I’m too obsessed and something must be wrong with me. Read more »