I’ve grown up in a muslim household. So sexuality is seen as super taboo and I feel a lot of shame around it. My parents used to shame me for not wearing a scarf. And also shame me for even the outline of my boobs being visible through my clothes! They dont do this anymore as they saw it did nothing. But despite ‘rebelling’ in these small ways, anything actually sexual used to make me feel ashamed. Hell even wearing tight jeans and feeling eyes on me made me feel uncomfortable.
Despite all this I’d secretly be sexual in private alone. I couldn’t help it. I was so horny all the time and thought that I was broken ..i’d masturbate with anything and everything I could get my hands on. Seriously. Put me in any room and I will find multiple things i can use to masturbate. I used to play a game where id scan the room with ‘fucking vision’. Id seek out things to suck, or fuck, or rub against. Or to get pleasure in some other way from. Most bizarre included a fidget spinner. I worried that I have a masturbation addiction. That I’m too obsessed and something must be wrong with me.
I was so happy when I hit 18. I then used to find random people online to roleplay and flirt with. And also to sub for. I enjoyed having others control my masturbating and orgasms. But I felt I was getting more and more dangerous and wreckless with masturbating. I broke the motor of an electric razor, as I’d dismantle it to use the motor only but pressed it too hard. And soon after I hurt my cervix whilst masturbating with an electric toothbrush. But OH MY GOODNESS, was the electric razor motor AMAZING. With support from an online friend, I decided that I must buy sex toys. At this point it was a necessity almost and really needed for personal safety. Also I was very desperate.
So i got my first toys when 19. They were as far removed from phallic as possible. I wanted unrealistic. The thought of cock filled me with shame. Even imagining cock or anything like it. I was stuck in a weird point where I was so desperate to get off but so ashamed. I ended up spending over $400 (by now its more) on sex toys, and regularly fucking myself with dildos and touching myself for hours in a row. But still shying from humans. Kind of weird how I convinced myself dildos are okay but a human is not. I guess thats what the entire obsession with virginity does.
January of this year was when I decided I want to embrace my sexuality some more. I used to be super averse to sharing nudes but I shared some underwear pics with a stranger around then. It was so exciting.
And then lockdown happened. It all got shut down and I felt desperate but had no one. I found some small online chat rooms where i showed a few people risque photos and the thrill I got out of that was amazing. It was scary at first but they were so lovely and accepting. I want to do that some more and want to try posting publically but am cautious about safety and privacy and all that.
Lockdown has made me so desperate. And with being friends with sex positive people and reading so much on reddit I’m now sure that I want to do sexual things with people in person. I know I want to embrace my sluthood. I want to be sexual. No, I am sexual. I want to be more sexual. These few months in lockdown have given me the chance to reflect and accept myself some more. I used to do sexual things out of impulse then swim in regret after. I want to become a slut. The sluttiest that I possibly can. I like the word slut. It feels empowering.
I now spend so long fantasising. I want cock buried down my throat. I can’t stop thinking about that and keep sucking off objects and gagging myself on them. I’m so frustrated that the pandemic is still ongoing. It’s been months of daydreaming.
My bucket list for the foreseeable future includes:
– Omegle challenge (I’ve done this now and will post update soon)
– Give a blowjob (please ?)
– Post lingerie pictures online
– Recieve oral
– Eat a vagina out?
– Make out with a guy
– Make out with a girl
– Be seen naked in person
– See a man naked in person
– See a woman naked in person
I know its relatively tame but the most I’ve done is hold hands with a guy, so these are fairly big for me. I’m hoping to update in future too. Suggestions for the list are welcome!
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/koby5c/f_im_a_muslim_who_is_desperate_to_be_slutty_and
I’m excited for you to experience new sexual things and I’m happy you have accepted a very human thing in your sexuality. I was raise in a very strict household so I can relate to some extent.
My only advice is…be careful. Vet who you fool around with so some extent to make sure they’re disease and drug free (DDF as it is put commonly). Other that that..slut out!
Selfishly I wish I knew you or were closeby so I could guide you on your journey and help you experience things. Have fun and keep posting so we can at least get off to your stories of exploration.
I’ve always had a thing for muslim girls. Repressed girls in general. We have a lot of them here in France so I have what I want.
I hope you will be happy and that you’ll fulfill your dreams. Feel free to come and talk if you want a judgment-free discussion. Be careful, stupid slut <3
I find I’m curious why eating out a vagina has a question mark. Do you think you’re bisexual or do you just want to do it to challenge yourself sexually? I don’t mean to sound judgemental. Just a generally curiosity your post has sprung in me.
Same, a Muslim here that became a male slut the moment i left my parents home!
I’m so happy for you sweetie (: I was repressed by my Catholic parents too, especially by my mom, but I got through it with time, you’ll be fine
Wishing the best for you ?
I’m also an (ex) Muslim raised in a Muslim household and shamed for a lot of things and recently started exploring my sexuality.
Message me if you need but honestly it’s the best thing I could have done.
I’m happy to help if that’s something you’re interested in as well. I understand the need for a safe community that you can relate to.
Good on you. Go for it all :)
If you’d like to share, you could look into the nsfw sub r/repressedgonewild
I wish you all the cock and vagina you want in the next year and lots of good feelings from your future slutiness :)
You’re gonna make some people very happy (including yourself) this year. Stay safe, listen to your partners (like you want them to listen to you) respect your instincts and your own boundaries as you learn more about yourself and other people and enjoy!
There’s a reddit sub on here thats about you asking strangers what to do (sexually) throughout the day. Sound’s like something you might be interested in.
Send me some nudes by PM and be my little slut. I promise to make your clit throb
This was a big turn-on for me, though I’m not in a similar situation. I wish you luck and fun in exploring your sexuality more.
Hello! You seem really kind and genuine. Would it be ok if I reached out via PM or chat? Simply in a friendly manner. Thanks!
I hope you can make your Bucket list a reality.
Good luck on your journey!
That’s so hot and I feel u I was legit in the exact same situation, lmk if u need tips
Get down with your bad self. Be safe
I hate to critique your sexual behaviour after a life time from your parants, but it is still possible that you have a masterbation/sex addiction.
I have no problem with girls and guys doing what they want sexualy and hope you can get over any shame you have about it but addiction is sirous. Please do some research on the topic and see if it is a source of addiction or if its ok