Quick descriptor of myself, at the time I was 29, 5’10”, slim but athletic build, wavy brown hair, red beard, green eyes.
It had been a year since my separation with my ex wife, and I was looking for some fun. I had recently discovered the r/RapeKink subreddit, and immediately I was intrigued. What caught me off guard and also turned me on to no end was the idea of women going out and “rapebaiting”. That this was even a thing just blew my mind, that some women were so into it that they would literally seek out rape. I read more about CNC and how people would roleplay rape so they could get their “fix” in a safe way. Prior to this, I hadn’t really delved deep into sexual depravity. Some light choking and slapping were the kinkiest things I had done in my previous relationships. Slowly I began to have a major shift in how I viewed sexuality as a whole as a result of my readings, and later my actions, specifically regarding the true nature what the feminine and masculine are, at the base level. But I digress, as I read more, the more I knew I needed to try this with someone.
Meet Kyla, She’s 19 years old, slim, 5’7”, and goes to the local University majoring in “women’s studies”. She has straight brown hair, light green eyes, and the cutest pixie face. She looks strikingly similar to Claire Forlani from “Meet Joe Black”. Interests wise, we had nothing in common. Politically, we couldn’t have been farther apart. Sexually? Hand in glove. She had an insatiable rape kink. She never understood why she did, she was never abused, she has a great relationship with her (intact)family, and her past relationships seemed pretty standard. And yet, every few days she would be completely insatiable, craving to be raped, masturbating for hours at a time.
We met on reddit during one of her hours long masturbation sessions. She very quickly sent me nudes, told me what she wanted me to do to her in graphic detail, and proceeded to very obediently take every picture request I gave her, with high attention to detail. Ladies, if you ever want to impress a man, I’m telling you, simply listen carefully to what he says, and then do it. We really aren’t complicated. Anyways, it goes without saying, I was instantly hooked on her.
We messaged back and forth and eventually moved things to texting. We texted for a couple of months before our schedules finally lined up and we could meet. During these months, it became clear that the only real overlaps we had were sex and arguing. I suppose we had stubbornness in common as well. She very strongly disagreed with my world view, but in all honesty, I think she just hadn’t encountered anyone who had challenged her views before. These weren’t “insulting” arguments, they were actually quite philosophical, I enjoyed them and she kept engaging me in them so I’m sure she got something out of it. In any case, she began to resent my opinions.
Despite this, or perhaps because of this, she became increasingly turned on by the thought of me “raping” her. The more we disagreed, the more she wanted it to happen. We finally both had time to meet up and decided it would just be a regular meetup, to gauge the real life chemistry, before jumping into anything physical. Just a car date, I’d pick her up and we’d drive around and chat.
Now prior to this, I had been out of the game for a long time. I was a serial monogamist and only had 2 relationships prior, each one lasting over 5 years. So I will just say that I was out of practice and not a particularly smooth customer during our little date. I talked too much, which lead to disagreements in opinion, which lead to more arguing, this time in real life. Big surprise, right? Anyways, I was frustrated and not exactly turned on by the meetup, and we ended things there…
Until I messaged her again a few months later.
During those few months, I had read more, messaged with other similarly inclined girls, had lots of discussions, and reflected on how I handled things. The CNC world is very different than the world I came from. It pays to be bold in this world. I finally messaged her again and basically said “I should have just taken you then and there instead of arguing with you”
To which she replied “Yes”.
We end up talking back and forth again, going over our little date, and she tells me she had been masturbating to the thought of me just taking her in the car. She imagined me getting riled up and angry during the argument and just slapping her, driving her some place secluded and raping her. Again I was caught off guard by this, despite soaking up all I could about this world in the months prior, the idea that I, me, could just take this woman violently, and that it was okay, and that it was what she actually wanted. I don’t know how to articulate it, it just boggled my mind and made my dick harder than anything.
We chat for awhile longer, we’re both too turned on discussing what could have been to not meet up again, so we set up another date.
This time a real CNC date.
Source: reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/12fgbsp/meeting_kyla_part_1_how_i_got_into_cnc29m_19f_cnc