[F] How i became close with my son

I’m close with my son and feel like this is the only place where I can tell how i feel.

I’m 42, average in physique and work at a convenience store. Been divorced since my son was born. He’s 20 years old, studying engineering. For 20 years, I never had sex. Yes. Because I had to take care of him, I didnt get time to date. But I’m happy about it. The month we became close, a lot had happened. This is gonna be long so bare with me…

We never really had any sexual tension between us. Game of thrones changed that. I wasn’t a fan of it, until my son (who was a big fan) forced me to watch it. I kinda liked it. We began watching it together from season 2 onwards, everyday. The sex scenes never bothered us. But then there was a sex scene between melissandre and stannis where she was fucked on the table. For some reason that spiked a tension between us. I looked at him for a second, he was staring at me. I quickly looked back. It was weird. The next day it began. We had pancakes in

the morning with honey, his favourite. I put the pancakes on the table and called him. He came right away. “Honey’s in the cupboard” ,I said. He took it and poured some on his plate. Then it happened. 

He was talking about college stuff and began pouring it in my plate. And ‘accidently’ some of it fell on my skirt. I always wear t-shirt and skirt at home. The skirt covered my legs till the knees, but it was thin.

“Oh sorry mom”, he said and  immediately began wiping my skirt with his hands. I was about to say that its okay, but I was shocked that he began wiping it. He wiped the honey off my thighs slowly engulfing my entire thigh in his hand. He slowly moved towards the crotch area but then stopped. No sex for 20 years, remember? So although it was on my skirt, I was easily aroused. And then he slowly
wiped my crotch area and licked all that honey from his fingers. I never expected that so I was shocked and aroused as hell. I tried not to shake.

“Well I’m not gonna waste it”, he said while laughing. I fake laughed , but I was in a mood to grab that boy and fuck him to hell. But my silly ass couldn’t realize that he was giving signs. Then comes stage 2. 

That evening when I came home from work( I come last at home due to late work at store) , he opened the door. But something was different. His shorts. I could see a bulge. He wasn’t wearing any underwear. I didn’t get why he stopped wearing it, but it was okay with me. The bulge didn’t affect me. But the constant swagging of his nut to and forth while he walked , did. I couldn’t keep my eyes off his shorts while he walked, and he caught me several times staring at it. He didn’t say anything. I controlled myself. I didn’t want to be a pervy mother. But… 

The next weekend he wanted to go to the beach. I’m not a fan of the sea, as I get easily tired from walking on the sands. But since it was the weekend I agreed. I never wear bikini , so I didn’t have anything to wear at the beach. “We’ll buy some clothes on the way to the beach. I don’t have any bikinis” I said. “Bikinis!??” he gasped. I was confused. “Why? ” I asked with a smile. “No, I have never seen you in a bikini ” he said and laughed. “Well you’re gonna now ” I said. He went to his room, his cock swinging left and right and that sight made me close my mouth and grab my pussy as he walked away. “What’s happening?” I asked to myself. I didn’t want this, but he’s making it hard. Literally. 

Before going to the beach that weekend, we stopped by a shop to buy some bikinis. Let’s call my son “Sam” . Sam had already packed his shorts and goggles or something (glasses u wear in water). I found some bikinis of my size and went towards the billing section. 

“What are you doing?” he said. “You have to wear them and see if it’s okay” he said and laughed. My silly mind was really thinking about what he said.  “But it’s bikini right? , ah well alright “. I went to the dressing room and tried it. Bikinis are actually not allowed into dressing rooms in that shop. I learned that later lol. But I got away with it. “How’s it mom? ” he asked from behind the door. “It’s alright” I said. “Can I see? ” He said. This kinda gave me signals. Is he into me? “No silly, it’s a shop. We’ll go to the beach” I said. I felt weird to show him the bikini in a shop. We drove to the beach. And went to those dressing quarters. He was waiting for me at the door. As I came , wearing my tight panties just enough to cover my pussy, with my ass cheeks bulging out like jelly and my bra covering the nipples but modest enough to show my upper breast and my fully naked waist, my son gasped for breath. “You look so hot mom ! ” He shouted. “Shoosh” I said . What was he thinking saying that in a public place. “That’s not a good thing to say, especially in public” I said. 

“Oh sorry mom, but you look beautiful anyway” he said. This statement melted my heart. No one had said that to me in a long time. I blushed. Till now I had not noticed his attire. We took our clothes to the locker and when I turned back I saw his shorts. His cock was bulging out. He wasn’t wearing any underwear. If he turned hard, I could see it clearly. “My God what’s he thinking ?” I asked myself.  I decided I’ll tell him about these basic things when we get home. I didn’t wanna spoil his mood. But seeing his cock hanging there under his shorts made my nipples hard. It now looked pointy. Before he noticed I said ” Come on let’s go and lay down ” . “Lay down ? Come on mom don’t be scared of the water. Come this once . You don’t have to go deep ” he said . I was afraid of the water so I always stayed at the shallow ends. “Alright Hun” I said. We walked towards the water. I went till the  water reached my neck. It was a nice feeling. Then my son started acting like a 8 year old. He went under and then after some time he came up all on sudden and surprised me. “Goodness Sam be careful ” I said. ” Come on mom , guess where I am. You could try to dive underwater , you know” he laughed. But no way, I was afraid of all that stuff. So he continued doing it. I looked all around when he went under and then he came up on my side or back. I felt like a kid too.  Then that happened. 

The next time he went under , I looked around, trying to play with him. I felt the water moving behind my back. Then he popped up behind my back grabbing me by my waist and almost lifted me up from the ground. His hands pushed my boobs together and his cock was now in my ass. I could feel his wet cock touching my ass cheeks and the boobs felt real nice to be squished by someone. I made a low moan. I don’t think he heard that. I acted surprised and out of breath, but I was sexually aroused so much, that I would have had sex with him right there on those beach sands. When he came to my front, I didn’t want his cock to leave my ass. I wanted to hug him. But I acted like I was surprised. I didn’t know what to do. “That’s enough for me ” I acted like he really got me. I went to the shore and laid myself  down on the mat. He came and laid beside me. I had sand all over my legs and chest just like him. “Mom you want me to put you some lotion? ” This was turning into those movie scenes you see which arouse you. I would have said no, but his wet cock reminded me how much of a slut I am. “Alright , get a cloth, I have to remove the sand from my body. “I’ll do it mom , just relax” he said. He took a small piece of cloth, and began wiping my legs. I looked left and right cautiously whether someone we knew was there. I was kinda terrified by what people might think. But it went away as soon as he began wiping my legs. He slowly wiped my thighs and lifted it up to wipe the back of it. He went through my pussy for a second. And then he began wiping my chest. “I’ll do the rest, get the lotion Hun” I said as I feared people might stare. He took the lotion and applied it on my back. He massaged me with it slowly all around the back and slowly moved down. He put his hands around my waist and caressed it.  He didn’t touch my ass, but he inserted his fingers into my underwear. I wanted to moan. Then he began putting it on my legs. I was lying bareback. He slowly massaged my thighs. And then while massaging my thighs, he used both his thumbs to feel my ass. 

I didn’t say a word . Because I wanted it. I wanted it for so long. He moved his thumb clockwise on my ass. I wanted him to insert it. He didn’t. I wanted more. “Alright , next you ” I said. I made him lay bareback, and put some lotion on him. Then at first I massaged him on his back. Slowly I moved down. Inserted my fingers into his shorts and gave his waist a touch. He didn’t move one bit. I started massaging his legs. From his thighs, I slowed moved into the holes of the shorts. I moved my fingers and touched his ass.  He looked at me. “What ? You don’t like it? ” I said.  “Whatever mom ” he said.  I was afraid whether I hurt him. I felt bad about myself. So I stopped. We laid there for some time. I decided I’ll stop thinking about him this  way. So we changed our clothes and went back home. We had a good time. We took some photos as well. That night all I could think while lying down to sleep was his wet cock . That wet rod I could see bulging through his shorts. And wagging to and froth while he walked. I forgot to tell him about it. But I decided not to. I took my phone and the photos we took. I removed my skirt and panties. I saw my boy in only shorts with his hugs cock bulging out. I put my finger in my pussy and began to masturbate. “Oh Sam” I moaned and came. I didn’t feel bad. I felt like I released something which was prisoned for a long time. 

The next morning I made some toast. He came to the table. “Mom , my friends wouldn’t believe you’re my mom” he said. Apparently he put the photos on Instagram. “Really? I’m that good ” I burst out laughing. “You have no idea ” he said. There was a moment of silence. I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t know if he was giving signals, so I decided I’ll give him. That evening when I came home from work, I asked him if he could make some tea. He went off to kitchen to make some. I immediately took a quick bath and wrapped myself on the bath towel with nothing inside. “Tea’s ready mom” he shouted.  “I’m coming ” I said.  I ran to kitchen before he leaves. Then he saw me all wet with just a bare cloth covering my body till thighs. “Mom put some clothes on ” he smiled and said. “Why, you told me I looked good” I laughed with him. I started talking with him. I took my tea and went to the sofa. Then I did the basic instinct. I crossed my legs and put on the TV while he was saying about college stuff. He couldn’t see my pussy as he was sitting beside me. “Hun, can you bring me my phone, I have to do something” I interrupted him. Of course I didn’t want to hear his college stuff lol. So he brought my phone from my room. He saw the beach photo of him as my wallpaper. As he was bringing me it, he saw my pussy wide open and couldn’t stop staring. I was trying not to smile. “Thanks Hun , what were you saying? ” I said . “Ah I forgot” he laughed. 

He walked into his room. Then he came out to drink water in the kitchen. Then went back again. Again he came out to do something in the kitchen.  Went back . All this time, I was looking at my phone, but I knew he was checking out my pussy. I decided to play more. 

That night we had lasagna, if I remember correctly. We ordered from outside. We talked while eating. After I finished , I began licking my spoon. I licked it like I was hungry, but I could see Sam looking up and down, trying to preserve it into his memory. “This lasagna tastes so good, I wanted more” I said and smiled. “Want some of mine?” He asked. “No it’s okay” I smiled. ” I’ll eat some ice cream” I said. “We’ll watch some game of thrones, after you finish” I said. We took the ice cream bowl and sat at the sofa. I don’t remember what episode it was, but of course there was nudity lol. We used two spoons. I purposely made my spoon fall to the ground. “Oops” I said. Before he got up to wash it I said :” it’s okay, I’ll eat with yours , don’t get up now”.  “Alright” he said with a smile . I don’t think he knew. So after he took a spoon, I opened my mouth.  “Well?” I asked smiling. He took some ice cream and put it in my mouth. I held his hands and ate the ice cream, and licked it. “I hope you don’t mind me licking, I can’t help it ” I said, realizing it was too straight-forward. He didn’t reply. The bowl was empty. His fingers had cream all over. I decided to push it all out. When he looked at his fingers , I grabbed them and began licking them. I took his index finger, put it in my mouth and began sipping. I licked his finger afterwards. I did this for the rest of his hand. He just kept watching. His cock wasn’t hard. But it sure showed a slight buldge. “There you go , what can I say , I love cream ” I mocked him. He smiled and went to his bedroom. I knew he had some interest in me. 

The next few days I was extremely busy with work. I hadn’t had the time to talk to him. I felt both needy and horny for him. So the coming weekend I decided something big. 

I don’t watch horror films because I didn’t like it. But that weekend I told Sam that we would be watching a horror film at home. He agreed. He was a movie maniac. Saturday night I bathed and prepared some popcorn and sandwich. Then we turned the lights off and put the movie on. My plan was going well. I sat next to him. And as the jump scenes were coming I grabbed his hand. I acted scared. “We can watch something else mom if you want ” he said laughing. I said it’s okay. I didn’t wear any panties or bra that day. It was just tshirt and skirt. I was going all in. As the next jump scare came, I grabbed his thighs. He didn’t say a word.  I kept the popcorn between his thighs. With the next jump scare I hugged him tight ,showing I was scared.  While doing so, I pressed my boobs against him so hard. “it’s just a movie mom ” he burst out laughing. I smiled. Then I went to take the popcorn while staring at the screen. I slowly grabbed his cock , firmly. It became hard all on a sudden. “Oh I’m sorry Sam ” I said . ” It’s okay here’s  the popcorn” he smiled. He trembled a little and I liked it. I liked the touch of his cock and wanted more. So I laid my head down on his thighs. “Can you watch the movie like that?” He asked. “Yeah , it’s almost over anyway” I said. I adjusted mysef to position his cock with my ears. I felt them. It was squishy and juicy. I wanted it. After the movie was over, I asked him whether I could sleep with him. “That movie’s gotten into my head. If I sleep alone I’ll have nightmares” . Those were my exact words. “No problem” he said. 

I laid down on the bed. He was doing something with his books. So I decided I’ll tease him. So I took my phone and pretended to type while I lifted my legs and placed them in a v shape with my pussy being the bottom of the v if you know what I mean. When he turned around he acted normal , but I could see by his actions that he wanted it so much. After the lights were switched off, I planned to tease more. I wanted to place my legs on him and push my boobs into him . But . ..

That night surprised me the most. I was lying face turned around and was planning how to tease him. Then I felt something in my back. I felt that he came closer to me. I acted asleep. Then he did something which changed my life forever. He put his hands around my waist. And then he pushed his cock against my ass. I wanted to moan so hard. But I wanted him to continue. He knew that I was awake. He moved his hands up to my boobs and began fondling them. He began moving his cock in my ass. I had to turn over. I acted surprised. But he knew everything. He said ” You said you liked cream” . I never expected that from him, and I was madly horny after I heard that. I let go his hands and cock and said : ” We are gonna fuck all night ” . He couldn’t contain his happiness. 

I kissed him. Tasted his mouth with my tongue. I put my saliva around his mouth and licked it. I kissed his forhead. Then I removed his shirt and shorts and removed my t-shirt. He fondled my breasts and began sucking them. I was a wild beast. I moaned loud. “Oh Sam” . I let him have my milk. Then I kissed him again. Then I went to his cock. Gave a nice little stroke. But I couldn’t do much, as I was horny as hell. I never had a cock for a long time. So I put it in my mouth. Began to blow it. I swallowed his cock upto his balls. I smiled and licked the tip and kissed it. The precum came. I licked it. Then I swallowed it again until he cummed. I swallowed every bit of his cum. I loved the taste of cum , every bit. “Wow mom , ur a beast ” that’s what my son told me. Lol. I licked his balls and then removed my skirt. “Beat me if you want, I don’t care. I want you to use me . I am yours. I only need your warmth”. I said.  He was taken aback by that. He took his cock and beat it with my boobs. He licked my pussy for a bit, but he couldn’t wait. He inserted his cock into my tight pussy. I moaned like hell . “Ahhh yesssss Sam, fuck me Sam, just fuck me ” I literally screamed. I wanted more of him. I never thought he would slap my ass, but he did. Oh how I enjoyed it. He fucked my pussy and grabbed my ass. Then he turned me over in a rush and slapped my ass. He fell over me, and fucked my ass. We kissed. But I couldn’t keep my mouth closed. “Yes, yes..Sam harder”.  He did his best. He fucked me for almost an hour. Then I licked his cock again. He started licking my body. He kissed and bit my boobs and bit my waist. I fucking enjoyed it. He was not a fan of eating pussy, but he did lick it. We both laid there trying to get our breaths back. “We will do this every night my love. I love you so fucking much”.  I said. “I wanted this mom. But seeing you tease me was really funny and felt good. I knew but I wanted more of your tease” he confessed. I had my doubts but now I’m happy . The next day we ate breakfast naked. I’m fact we eat most of the times naked. He gets up in the morning with a blowjob. 

We love each other very much no matter what society thinks. I told him I’ll stop when he gets a girlfriend. But I don’t think he will get soon. Lol. BTW, we are gonna try BDSM next week. 

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/afxqxe/f_how_i_became_close_with_my_son