[F] How i became close with my son

I’m close with my son and feel like this is the only place where I can tell how i feel.

I’m 42, average in physique and work at a convenience store. Been divorced since my son was born. He’s 20 years old, studying engineering. For 20 years, I never had sex. Yes. Because I had to take care of him, I didnt get time to date. But I’m happy about it. The month we became close, a lot had happened. This is gonna be long so bare with me…

We never really had any sexual tension between us. Game of thrones changed that. I wasn’t a fan of it, until my son (who was a big fan) forced me to watch it. I kinda liked it. We began watching it together from season 2 onwards, everyday. The sex scenes never bothered us. But then there was a sex scene between melissandre and stannis where she was fucked on the table. For some reason that spiked a tension between us. I looked at him for a second, he was staring at me. I quickly looked back. It was weird. The next day it began. We had pancakes in