When I awoke, I was on my back and she on her side, gazing at me, smiling. She had been watching me sleep. Her eyes were glassy with a few spiraling, paisley-like in design, bloodshot veins as if she had been crying. Her hand draped over my head, fingers running gently through my short hair, down my forehead, over my scar, ear, cheek, lips. She was petting me with such affection as I hadn’t experienced before. She was… lovingly caressing me.
“Du bist wach. Liebling, heute abend bleib ich bei dir weil morgen kommt die Susanne zurueck / You’re awake, dear, I’m staying with you tonight, tomorrow Susanne is coming back.”
“Weiss ich nicht ob’s genug platz in meinem herz gibt ihre liebe rhein mir zuneh’men / I don’t know if there’s space in my heart to take your love in (to me)”, “daran kann ich nichts weil du da schon bist / but I can’t do anything about it because you are already there.” She leaned over to kiss me, her heavy breasts weighing on my chest. She kissed my cheek, then nibbled on my earlobe while continuing to whisper, the exhale of her breath as she did warmed my skin, my heart, my feelings for her.