So after that one night with Alyssa things pretty much went back to normal. Neither of us mentioned what happened, and if she seemed to ignore me a little more than before in social settings no one really noticed. I just figured that in the clear, sober light of day she realized what happened and thought it was a mistake. And while I felt a bit dejected, I couldn't really blame her. I guess when you've been facialized by a friend you've never really had feelings for, you can feel a bit awkward about social interactions with them.
But did she have feelings for me? Besides drunk and horny? Was there a reason she called me, or was I just available? Was it interest or luck?
I spent about a week with these thought churning through my head. It felt like high school awkwardness all over again. But after a little while, and no signs from Alyssa whatsoever, I was able to just chalk it up as a fun experience and a small boost to my ridiculously small self confidence.
Then a few months later, she called me again.