I have always been fascinated in a sexual way by spanking. When I was younger I used to have fantasies about being kidnapped by pirates and being spanked by them. Some of the first erotic stories that turned me on like crazy when I read them at Literotica were ones that involved submissive women, especially if they were spanked. the harder the spanking, the more it would arouse me.
Because my sexual experience was pretty limited before I met the guy who would become my husband, I never got to explore anything kinky when I was young and single. I would NEVER have told anyone about the thoughts I masturbated to. I would have died of embarrassment if anyone knew!
A few years into our marriage I told my husband about it but not the extent. He was not turned on by it. He wasn’t raised in the sort of repressive religious environment I was and, as a result, is much more psychologically healthy. Occasionally he would give me a few swats as a part of foreplay but that was as far as it ever went.