In real life I’m really shy and kind of quiet. I don’t do great in social situations and would much rather be in the background. Because of this I’ve never really been the center of attention or dated very much.
The thing is, that as much as I hate attention being on me, I crave it too. For as long as I can remember I’ve wanted to be ogled and whatnot. I secretly get a little excited when some pervy old man catcalls me, even though it’s terrifying. I’ve always liked the idea of being objectified for being a woman and have fantasized about letting myself become a total slut. I just don’t have the courage … it’s a very uncomfortable paradox.
Another thing about me is that I’m very small. I’m only 5’3” and I’m very petite, well in an era where “thicc” women are idolized I’m actually depressingly rail thin. Being so small and shy I am terrified of conflict. I hate saying no to someone and avoid it at all costs, often bending over backwards just to appease someone. My bf says I’m basically a doormat.