The word BDSM had been something whispered about in university like some sort of dark underworld that only people in the know would have any knowledge about. I had a feeling it would be considered something highly unethical just from the level of secrecy about it as well as knowing it vaguely had something to do with sex. Basically, I was told women don’t have desires and those ‘’messed up women’’ who want it are abnormal and fall into the category of whores/prostitutes.
Trying to not compromise on the values in which I was raised, the internet became my source. My self-discovery story begins after discovering the NSFW side of Reddit and the people there. A few months after lurking, I finally landed myself a Daddy in the loosest sense of the idea.
After building rapport, we spoke over the phone for the first time. I didn’t know what to expect but it was very exploratory. The moment our call connected I felt a buzz across my skin as I heard his deep, rough, Spanish voice meet my ears. He instructed me to slowly remove my top and my trousers. Once uncovered, he asked me to trace my fingers over my bare chest and then to feel my breasts. This was something I had never done before. I held them in my hands, kneaded them lightly before he directed me to my nipples.