Part 1
I felt like she was “the one”, and the one to be avoided all at the same time. I told her she was the cause, and the cure to my agony. She would say the same about me. Her love, her sex, our connection makes everything else pale in comparison. She pisses me off, she makes me happy, she is home.
We have a year long history, one I won’t go into here – but suffice it to say it is long and stormy, while exhilarating and extremely comforting when it’s on point. I was trying to avoid her, figured my life was better without her. She can be evil, she would say the same about me, we were just done dealing with each other.
We had barely spoken for a couple of months, then out of nowhere she invites me to a park, says she has something important to say. I was very reluctant, I didn’t want my heart trampled on. Things were going very well for me after all, why would I even allow an opening? I’m not a coward that avoids life, so I go. Honestly I will always love her, so I go.