Whelp, I’ve never said it out loud to anyone other than my dog[5M] whom I always confide in, that I [30M] have seen 50-70 sex workers.
I have a Girlfriend, the bedroom chemistry is nonexistent. And a lot of times I do it more because she’s being unreasonable and it makes me so mad that I do these behind her back. I’ve tried leaving her before and we’ve had very heated arguments. I’ve never punched her or anything but things have certainly got out of control.
Whether she wants to admit it or not she depends on me to do a lot of things for her. Which go unnoticed quite often. Which is what I was attesting to earlier. There is no prose for me to post this here other then to just tell my story. I’ve never said anything to anyone for the 2 or so years I’ve been doing it. I hope to stop, I hope to have a healthy relationship. But idk we’ll see I guess. Judge me if you care to, I’m aware what I’m doing is wrong but I don’t think anyone can empathize and understand what it is to be in my shoes. I’m sure some have been in similar situations and been able to stay faithful, and provide loving care to their partner for the duration of their relationship, and they are a better person then me. I’ve failed, but how to do better.