Two months ago from today in the depths of Britain’s third lockdown I was not coping well. My girlfriend of 4 months had recently asked for a break and wasn’t coping. I’d only met her in November last year and hadn’t seen her since mid-December because she was staying with her family. Long-distance probably would have been fine for a month or two but by now we had fallen out over lack of facetime and I was frustrated that I was always having to initiate calls. Before the winter lockdown we had been very close and I had stayed over. We had cuddled over films and done some sexual things, but not full intercourse. I specifically remember her being very skilled at handjobs and we would both give each other intense orgasms. She was also incredibly sweet and fun and I was sad saying goodbye for Christmas. Little did I know that I would possibly never see her again.