Am i racist. [FMM]

Let me make this short and simple. Met with two of my black friends for some fun time (i have been sex deprived for a while) and well.. we had fun.

Over the period of an entire day and two nights i think i got around 20 or so loads in my pussy multiple on my face, tits, ass, back, even inside my butthole. Needless to say i had fun. A lot of fun.

Here’s the racist part now. After the first night they told me they wanted to try something. They wanted me to insult them using racist slurs so they fuck me harder. Honestly i think they just wanted to be humiliated or something but i agreed. I support BLM but when theres two sexy black dudes asking me to be racist for their satisfaction… i gotta listen to them.

So i did it. I called them the N word the C word, i called them slaves, monkeys. I was straight up racist. They loved it all and at the moment i felt uncomfortable but the sex quickly made me forget. I used slurs multiple times throughout the day and i felt nothing. It wasn’t until today, two days later, i think about it. Am i racist? Or is it ok since its in the bedroom and consented.

23[F] i have used the nword in bed before.

First of all i would like to say this. I support black lives and the context here is important.

Now, what is the context?

This happened when i was 21, two years ago, i was dating this black man, we can call him jay.
Jay seemed to have an interesting fetish. He wanted me to mentally abuse him while we fucked.

Our third time having intercourse he asked me to call him a slave. I felt really uncomfortable but he wanted it badly. He told me it would really make him feel good. So i did. I called my black bf a slave during sex. The next couple times he had me call him it again. While he blew my back out in doggy i called him a slave and gave orders.

then he took it to another level. He wanted me to call him a n*gger. Which i could not do. He was begging me so in the end i did it. I called him the nword. Our relationship lasted around 6 weeks and in the bedroom i regularly called him the nword and a slave.

Fucked a 58 year old man when i was 19 [FM]

When i was nineteen i moved into my own apartment.

My neighbours were a 58 year old man and a 52 year old woman. An older marriee couple. They were having issues with their sex life. The women just could not satisfy her husband anymore and they were looking for a solution when they noticed i moved in. One day after my coming home from work they offered to pay me 200 pounds to have sex with the husband. I was completely shocked and said no. A few days later the women approached me and told me about her situation and offered up to 500 pounds. I said i wouldn’t fuck for money but she was desperate.

After a lot of thought i ended up saying yes.

How was the sex? Pretty damn good tbh.
He was not fertile which meant he could cum inside. We decided not to use condoms. He was around 5ft 10inches tall and had a decent build for his age. He had a dad bod for sure. They ended up paying me 100 pounds per session which i was happy with.

First gangbang – [F]

Last year summer time. Was bored so i messaged one of my old Fwbs and he was down to cheer me up but i wanted to try a gangbang for the first time. Ended up just fucking him but made plans to have a gangbang the following week.

He managed to get 4 of his friends involved and when the time came, i was very nervous. It took place at one of his friends places. It started with light blowing then we moved on to penetration. They all took turns for the first 10 minutes or so untill they decided fuck it and all *ganged* on me. One was fucking my pussy, one in my ass and one was fucking my face.
Honestly it was the start of my love for gangbangs and by the end of the night i was exhausted and covered in cum. It was also a huge point in my submissive sex life. Having 5 dudes control me, insult me and just abuse my body with their dicks was a huge turn on. At one point i could barely breath. The entire night i was screaming and crying, and i loved it. If you got any, Ask me questions xx