This is a bit of a long story.
So I grew up in a boarding school for girls. I pretty much never left and stayed year around. Occasionally (and this was always a rare treat) my mom would show up and take me out for a few days of bonding. Usually happened once or twice a year. Needless to say, I was accustom to being on my own and not having a family. The school I attended was very much a discipline oriented school with a heavy focus on college prep. We were heavily pressured and driven to focus on our studies. Anything less than a B was a huge fucking problem. This was only made harder by mom who was hell bent on keeping all my time occupied. I was signed up for EVERYTHING, so I spent every evening, and every weekend, and every holiday, doing something school oriented. Clubs, sports, and school work pretty much 24/7. This was actually really depressing and emotionally draining as I didnt really have the luxury to develop friendships and persue relationships. Which was made even harder as I figured out I was a lesbian, surrounded by ass, and couldn’t touch any of it.