my first few times meeting guys online [FM]

Im a kind of nerdy girl who always seems to be quietly in the background. I have friends but am awkward talking to people I don’t know. I am very bad at dating. I guess Im good looking Im just short and skinny. I’m 25 and this all happened when i was an adult. Ive had some less than ordinary sexual experiences because I am a very awkward person but still pretty sexual.
so about a couple years ago a friend of mine was telling me about this website she was on where you could meet older guys who were well off and hang out/hook up with them. It sounds really bad but I was in school and had a shit job so I discreetly made a profile and kind of checked it out. I was broke and suck at relationships and dating so I thought Id try. I ended up meeting with a few guys and it was a pretty weird set of experiences. You get to talk with them beforehand and check them out a bit so they’re not total freaks but it is strange meeting them and kind of doing awkward negotiations. I kind of went for married guys who were somewhat good looking and normal. It ended up being different than I expected thats for sure. I can’t exactly talk about this with my friends but I thought Id write about some of the weird meetups ive had. please dont judge me im not exactly proud of these but I can make my own decisions and people are way to hung up about sex. I like writing and used to want to be a writer but dont usually . I thought id write about the first guy and see if anyone likes it and then maybe some of the times after that and then maybe the absolute weirdest one.

that time I fucked my childhood friend and his buddys at a party

Im jamie. Im 20 years old and im new to reddit, I thought it might be funny to tell this story that I have told no one about this slutty thing I did last christmas holidays. I had started my first year at college and was just back home for the break. I tend to get really horny and reckless when I drink (have since my first drop) so I don’t drink alot but I had been more frequently. Anyways, most of my friends were working and I had nothing to do one saturday night. Now I had this childhood friend Eric, he was 24 but we grew up together as kids. We were inseperable til we became teenagers and then I hung with the sporty crowd and he was more of a stoner. He had started messaging me while I was away and I was bored so I decided to go to this party he invited me to even though I hadn’t even seen him in like 3 years. So I snuck out at 9 (yes im 20 but my dads crazy so I still have to sneak out) and he picked me up and we went to his friends place. The part sucked but one of his friends named hugh was pretty cool and I talked with him alot and did a bunch of jagrbombs and gin shots. The party wound down and I was really drunk and me and hugh and eric and 3 of his friends were all that were left and we started playing some drinking card game in the dining room. there werent enough seats so I sat with hugh on his chair. I couldnt really follow the game though because i was wasted and hugh started putting his hands down my pants. I wasnt into it at first but then i let him once and as soon as he put his fingers between my legs i got super wet. so he put the bottle of gin to my mouth and i took a slam and i realized everyone could see hugh was fingering me. I mumbled that we should go to another room so we went to the living room couch and i remember eric looked angry but the other guys were laughing. so we ended up on the couch and hugh pulled my pants off and started fingering me and then i got his pants off and he was hard and i put him between my legs and he slid his cock in me. I was really drunk and as he started to fuck me i got so wet and really into it. he started pounding me hard and then i realized eric and his friends were watching me get fucked, and then i saw eric pull his cock out. this was alot too process as i was getting fucked really drunk and all of a sudden hugh came, grunting hard into me and he pulled out and i realized he hadnt worn a condom because cum poured out of me. I was really drunk and just kind of laid there for a second and before I knew what was happening eric was getting over me with his pants off and his cock out. he then stopped and asked me if I wanted to do it with him. And I hadnt came and this was already happening so I said yes and then he went inside me. one of the other guys poured booze in my mouth as eric fucked me and i zoned out for a bit and suddenly eric was pulling out of me and one of the other guys was going in me. Anwyays it gets hazy but I woke up on the couch by myself the next morning with a mess between my legs and no clothes on. i got up and went to the bathroom and hugh was up and drove me home. i never talked to them again