An open relationship is fucking overwhelming [MF] [FF] [Voyeur]

After my wife died in 2013 I had all but given up on love, relationships and getting back out into the world of the living. I had been a boring man before that and was still after that too. Especially as far as sex was concerned. We had married in our early twenties. And for ten years we were happy with each other and that was that. I do work odd hours in my job, which was the only thing putting a strain on our relationship. But after some time to develop a thirst for life again and some years, where I could have taken up a job as a hermit, I was ready to live again.

Through work, I met Helena. Helena is 28 and therefore almost ten years younger than me and among the most attractive and active people, I had the fortune to meet. What she sees in me will forever remain a mystery ensconced in her head. I have to admit I was not looking for any kind of relationship, but casual sex. And Helena was happy with that as she travels a lot for work. Helena in contrast to me is not a boring person. She is bi-sexual and every one of her last relationships was an open one. We had some casual sex on occasion. And then grew closer over time.