Throwaway account because I agreed to him I wouldn’t say anything to anyone.
He (M22) let me (M19) know he was in an open relationship and his fiancé (F) knew he was looking for someone to perform oral sex on regularly. I was terribly lonely at the time and my bad habit was using sex as a coping mechanism for unresolved emotional and sexual trauma. We would meet up in public places and he would perform oral on me and we’d have sex. I enjoyed how he’d talk to me and desired me but the whole fiancé thing never really sat right with me. Maybe because even after promising me that we’d have consistent sex, he’d be so busy between work and his fiancé I was on the sidelines.
We had sex in showers, public restrooms, saunas, in cars, empty lots.
It wasn’t good for my mental health and my emotional health. He always wanted to include me in their sex life but I wasn’t really willing to. Since then I’ve given up porn and decided to be celibate. I haven’t had sex with him in over a month.