I apologize for the Stephanie series

They were a severely misguided attempt to exorcise some inner demons. They have cost me everything. I am in need of serious and deep psychological counseling. I did not even begin to fathom the possibility that the subject might have found them. I can’t imagine how devastating this must have been for them. I am so very sorry.

Stephanie part 8

Stephanie braced herself against the wall, pushing back against the hammering being done to her ass. She stifled a moan and a scream as Bryan pummeled her mercilessly from behind. She wasn’t sure how she got here, in the same stairwell where they had had their first encounter, but she was thoroughly enjoying his cock plunging into her. It was a surreal feeling, knowing she was finally getting the pounding she so desperately needed and wanted, but she wasn’t feeling it like she had with past lovers. It felt good, for sure, but not quite there. She shook the feeling off and leaned her head forward, trying to enjoy it. The pumping became less intense, like Bryan was stopping, and she wondered why. She could barely feel him any more. She turned her head to look at him, and he was gone. The next thing she was aware of was a small voice saying “mom”! Steph’s eyes fluttered open, and she saw her daughter looking at her. Damn. It had been a dream. They would explain the ethereal feeling of the whole encounter. “Yeah baby?” she asked, smiling to hide her embarrassment and shame at the resent she had for her daughter pulling her away from him. “Can you get me some breakfast?” her daughter asked. “Sure” said Steph wearily. “Just give me a minute, ok?” “Ok mom!” her daughter said as she scrambled out of the room. Steph moved to get up and was suddenly aware of just how wet the dream has gotten her. She muttered a low “shit” and hurriedly got up to change into dryer underwear. She’d had plenty of sex dreams before, but nothing as intense as that. She’d woken up wet before, but most times waking up from a dream like that just made her feel like she needed to pee. She tried to clear her head and moved on to helping her family.

Stephanie part 7: satisfaction

Stephanie bounced up and down on his cock, riding him hard. She leaned back and let him hit her sweet spot. Without warning, he moaned and exploded inside her, but she kept riding despite his cock going limp. “Not now, dammit”, she thought. “Not when I’m so close.” But it was no use. Her husband looked up at her, sweating. “Holy shit, baby” he gasped, laying his head back down. By now his limp dick had slipped out of her. She faked a smile, kissed him on the forehead, and climbed off him. She had practically attacked him the second he had gotten home from his trip, but it had been a bust from the word go. She lavished him with affection, both physical and emotional. The experience with Bryan and left a great aching that only the touch of a man could fill. She desperately wanted it to be him as she had fantasized about so many times since her last chat session with him, but she wasn’t that kind of woman. So when her husband came back, she took him to town, but he only drove her up the street, as the saying goes. Steph didn’t keep any sex toys other than her own two hands, but she desperately wanted something inside her that wouldn’t go flaccid just as she was about to erupt. She decided to shower and pleased herself with her fingers as much as she humanly could. It was going to be a long night.

Stephanie part 6: escalation

Sorry for the lack of updates. I’ve had a rough couple of weeks and inspiration has just been hard to grasp. I’m shortening the names of my posts just.. because. I feel like I’ve moved past her job. I don’t know if I’ll stick with the subtitles, but this one seemed appropriate.

It was hard for Steph to know where to go from here. Things had gone from occasional flirting to full blown robust in what seemed like a very short time. She enjoyed the feeling of being desired and the newness and excitement of their conversations thrilled her. She hadn’t gone as far as to tell him how wet and turned on their conversations made her, but she wanted to. Bryan might have said he felt like he had gone too far with the pictures, but he wasn’t showing that hesitation and reservation now. He was openly commenting on how she looked as he passed her on the way to his office, and the compliments flew. He told her he liked her hair, commented on any change to her makeup routine, and even if she smelled fresh and clean. It was all welcome and she was grateful for it. She tried to throw him some compliments as well, but he seemed eager to keep the topic off of him and to praise her. Steph had never been one to masturbate, because she had always had someone at hand to take care of her needs, but sometimes he just said things that couldn’t wait until she got home. She found herself on more than occasion making an extended trip to the bathroom to please herself while thinking of him.

Stephanie the security guard: part 3

            Steph was mad. Steph was cross. Steph puffed and blew a stray strand of hair off her face and glared at nothing in particular. A night out at the bar with friends had sounded like a great idea; drink a little, get a little buzzed, kill some thoughts and feelings, and spend some time with her adoring husband. Except he wasn’t being very adoring tonight. She looked on as he hung out with the bros, cracking jokes and laughing way too loudly at the lame jokes being told. He even made the mistake of showing her a picture of one of his former coworkers that his friend managed to get from her in a moment of weakness. Great, so not only was he looking at other women naked, he was sharing it with her. Maybe he reasoned that somehow made it ok or better, but she wasn’t having it. She put on a mock smile and just said “cool.” He must’ve felt the frost from her stare because he quickly scuttled off to his friends to make hasty explanations about why he now needed to spend time with his wife to smooth things over. It had all started out well enough, her changing into a nice skirt and blouse with him eyeing her while she did so. She wanted to look good and look good for him. Maybe she’d draw some unwanted attention and he’d come to her rescue and be the gallant hero, but no. She had spent the miserable evening with the wives with a man here or there staring her down, but with the other women around, none having the courage to act on it. She didn’t really want anyone else to pay attention to her, but maybe the competition would get his blood flowing and maybe he could exhibit some passion for her for once. But no, now she was getting the pity attention; the attention a man gives when he knows he’s screwed up and needs to make amends. All this did was make her think of Bryan and how sweet he had been to her. How kind. How complimentary. His big thick.. ugh. She gently asked her husband if it was time to go yet, and lightly ran her hand up his thigh to rest on his cock to get her message across. It leapt to life and he made his hasty goodbyes and took her to their car.
 
            They were parked in an alley behind the bar, and were lucky enough to score a prime spot that was isolated from everything but one or two cars. A wicked impulse took hold of her and she began her plotting. She held his hand as they walked and awkwardly laid her head on his shoulder. She removed her hand from his and pulled it around to her hip and wrapped her arm around him. She got into a tiptoe position and kissed his cheek. He smiled until her free hand was suddenly on his bulge. Then he just stopped cold with a blush creeping up his face. “Honey” he said, “you have to stop. Not here!” She laughed and let him lead her on. They reached their car, and like the gentleman he could be, he opened her door for him. This may have been for the best, as she wasn’t sure she quite had the faculties to do so herself. She turned to him smiling and said “thank you.” She bit her lip and moved in to kiss him. He didn’t resist as she turned it into a full open mouth kiss, their tongues exploring each other’s mouths. She again grabbed at his crotch, and he gave a weak “honey” but stopped as she began to aggressively grab and stroke him up and down. Before he could know what hit him, she had undone his pants, and pulled them and his underwear down just enough to bring him out into view. “What are you doing?” he whispered, but he made no move to get away. More smoothly than she thought possible considering her inebriated state, Stephanie slid down to a squatting position, pulling her skirt up over her hips while she did so, exposing her lower half to anyone who could’ve seen. She grabbed hold of his cock and put it into his mouth. He gasped and moaned, then looked around to make sure no one was watching. She bobbed her head up and down, using one hand to stroke him while the other made its way down to her clit, beginning to swirl her fingers around it. She aggressively sucked on his cock, looking up occasionally to give him eye contact to excite him more. By now he had noticed what she was doing down below and let out a groan. “Fuck, baby. What’s gotten into you?” She removed him from her mouth long enough to say “I don’t see you complaining,” then plunged back down on his hard cock. He moaned and stroked her hair as she desperately stroked her clit, moving her fingers down between her lips to get moisture to lubricate. He moaned and stroked her hair, his leg muscles flexing and tightening. “Damn, he’s about to cum,” she thought, losing hope that she’d have time to finish herself off before he did. She knew it was a lost cause, so she wrapped her free hand around his leg and stroked and bobbed on him until she felt his leg tense under her hand, then start to shake as he blew his load into her waiting mouth. She plunged down and took every drop into her mouth and slowly began swallowing. This was unusual for her, as she usually wouldn’t swallow him, but she was, after all, feeling particularly nasty and wanted to see his reaction. He let out a whispered “fuck, baby” as the last spasms of his cock stopped and he went limp in her mouth. She stood up and pulled her skirt down, and moved in to kiss him. When she pulled back, he said “what was that for?” with ragged breaths. “I’d just been thinking about you all day” she said, smiling. “Let’s go home before we pick the kids up” she said with another wicked grin and he laughed and said “ok.” The drive home was agony, since she hadn’t been able to finish herself off. He put his hand on her thigh and pulled her skirt up so he could reach her. He said “not while I’m driving” and quickly pulled his hand back. “He used to be a lot more adventurous”, she thought pouting. She remembered a time or two where he had played with her clit and fingered her while driving. True, it has been awkward and she didn’t get off, but it was exciting.

Stephanie the security guard: part 2

The next weeks proved to be a strange mix of sexual frustration, tension, and longing. Stephanie knew that seeing Bryan again would be one of the more awkward situations she would ever have to endure, but she knew she had to. She could avoid the situation and him, but she didn’t want to do that. She was a big girl, and she could face up to her problems. Hadn’t she stood up for herself and proved everyone wrong during her military service? When everyone expected the “pretty blonde cheerleader” to fail, she excelled. No one dared to mock her after she not only achieved, but overachieved. She practically became one of the guys with her heart, guts, and determination. Surely something as petty as social awkwardness couldn’t get the best of her. So she stood tall and waited at attention as the flood of employees came in to make it in for their appointed shifts. She smiled and waved and made polite conversation, all the while keeping one wary eye out for the man who had unwittingly unleashed such chaos and desire in her mind. Once she saw him, she could reconcile what had happened and see him again as just another guy, even with the extracurricular activities they’d shared.

Stephanie the security guard

Stephanie was not living her best life. She hadn’t had an easy one, true. But she thought things should at least be less hectic and stressful. She grew up in what might be considered a rougher part of the valley, and had made some bad choices in the past, but she was content with the life she was living now. Mostly, at least. Stephanie was a petite blonde with blue eyes and hair that fell to below her shoulder blades. She wasn’t as fit as she had been in her military days, but she was still slender with a nice bosom. Her only hang up was her stomach. 3 children had taken their toll, and she had what she considered to be a horribly stretched stomach which she constantly covered with a camisole, even when naked with her husband. She pulled the straps down so he could get at her breasts, but she never let him see her fully naked. The truth was, no one else would have batted at eye at her stomach, but she surely was her own worst critic.
She had a happy home life. She had three wonderful children, two boys and a girl. Her kids were happy and well behaved, and did well in school. Of course, kids fight and have a time getting along sometimes, but whose kids don’t? She had a wonderful husband who adored her and who she truly loved. They had their disagreements, but that was nothing unusual as she saw it. True, she had some issues with his choices in sexual matters, but that’s normal. Couples disagree and all. But she really didn’t appreciate his desire to, well, cover her face with his cum. She felt it degrading, so that’s where she drew the line. Outside of that and perhaps his tendency to watch too much porn, they had a happy and fulfilling sex life. Sure, she had people who she interacted with in regular life she found attractive and maybe even wondered what it would be like to be with them, but that was human too. She was usually able to put that behind her and focus on her marriage and family.
Her greatest hangup with her husband was his desire to gamble. It wasn’t often, and it wasn’t expensive, but it was bothersome. He would leave her home alone with the kids overnight so he could go do his thing. They’d argued about it, but they had decided that as long as he kept it under a certain amount, it wasn’t too big of a problem. So she stewed and hemmed and hawed about it, but she just let it go. When he’d go out of town, she’d have friends over and drink and have a good time to take her mind off of things.
Her job as a security guard was a natural fit due to her military background. She was petite, but she was tough. Tougher than most men she had served with, to be honest. She could hold her own against men and women much larger than her, and rarely had to actually use physicality in her work. Usually her most challenging situations at work revolves around her having to handle the many homeless people who populated the downtown area. Usually they were quick to get away from people who looked anything like law enforcement, but she had had to deploy non lethal methods such as pepper spray from time to time. One of her coworkers had been ambushed by someone once and been hurt pretty badly, which shook her for a time, as it did all of her colleagues, but she eventually got over it.
She checked ID’s and patrolled the parking lots of a large building that housed several businesses, and so encountered a lot of people in her daily activities. Here is where those attractive people mentioned before came in. For most, a friendly greeting and a smile was sufficient, but there were a handful of people she would talk and joke with, who she would consider friends. These included a mix of men and women of all ages and backgrounds. Some had, of course, tried to flirt with her, jokingly or not. She knew very well how to shut these down very firmly and usually without hurt feelings. There had only been a couple of times where she had to actually get management involved to stop particularly friendly people from talking to her.
There was one exception, however. Bryan was a tall blonde haired man who was in decent shape for being in his early 40’s. You could see what looked like a powerful muscular frame under his clothes. He had broad shoulders and obviously thick arms which he would jokingly flex when he walked by. Bryan was married with kids as well, so she had been able to keep things at bay, despite finding him attractive and having good rapport with him. He had found her on Facebook and they’d shared private messages that were flirty, but not too much so. To her shame, she had flirted more than her husband would be pleased with. You’re not supposed to write anything you wouldn’t want your spouse to read, right? Well, she had broken that rule a time or two with Bryan, but they had always been able to bring it back to playful banter before it got to be too much.
Things went on like this for some time, she seeing him as he came in to and left work, and occasionally as he went to his car to go about random tasks. Once or twice they’d shared a few minutes of what you’d call private conversations in relative seclusion in the parking garage, with some playful and flirty banter that would be mentioned jokingly in a Facebook message here and there. She knew when he was and wasn’t at work because he was consistent in his parking and she knew his car. Well, in time, the banter became less and less, and the flirting seemed to slow down. The Facebook messages stopped coming, and Bryan seemed more subdued. He always had a smile and a quip for her, but his face would go back to a flat unsmiling stare after he would walk away. She thought about asking him if everything was ok, but figured it wasn’t her place. Still, she did miss her friend and the banter they always enjoyed. But, life goes on.
One evening, after most of the employees had left, Stephanie was making a final round of the parking garage before clocking out for the night. It was mostly deserted, and there wasn’t a soul to be seen walking to or from a car. She always checked the higher levels, even though no one usually parked there, as it was part of her route, even though no one really wanted to park that far away from the stairs and elevators. To her surprise, she saw Bryan’s car. She was a bit taken aback, but curious why he was there. He was allowed to park in the garage, obviously, because he worked in the building, but she found it curious that he was there, so far outside of where he usually parked. She could see he was in the car, and thought maybe this would be a good chance to check on him and see how things were going with him, since he had seemed so melancholy and sad lately. More than once, she had walked up on him when he was in his car and tapped on his window and they had gone through the whole “do you know why I pulled you over” routine, which had led to many of their conversations, so she felt safe and comfortable doing so now. As she approached, she noticed he has his phone in front of him. No big deal, people watch videos in their cars all the time. Sure, he was here later than usual and not in his usual spot, but that wasn’t suspicious. However, as she got closer, the picture of what was happening became clearer. She saw on his tiny screen a video of a petite blonde woman stripping down for a man laying down on a bed. Stephanie immediately flushed and was about to walk away, but her curiosity was piqued. From what she could see, that woman looked a lot like.. her. She stood rooted to the spot, but Bryan was obviously too distracted to notice she was standing there. She watched at the petite blonde, now fully naked, got on her knees and grabbed the man’s cock and slowly stroked it and smiled. The woman then licked the head and slowly took it into her mouth and began bobbing up and down. Embarrassed, Stephanie realized that her panties were now slightly wet from the sight and thought of Bryan watching someone who looked like her giving a blowjob. She was about to turn away in embarrassment when she suddenly spied movement from his other hand. Her eyes widened as he unzipped his pants and started fumbling with the front of his boxers. “Oh, it is time to go” she thought to herself, and wanted to turn to walk very quickly away, but.. she had to see. She had to see, while she had the chance, what this handsome man she had flirted shamelessly with had going on between his legs. She felt hot. She felt ashamed. Her panties were moist, but she had to know. Bryan opened the flap of his boxers and pulled out his large, thick penis. Stephanie was no stranger to dicks. She had lost her virginity at 14, and she had had several lovers. She had seen a lot of different sizes and thicknesses, including her husband’s own long and normally thick penis, and it kept her satisfied for years. She hadn’t given another thought to any of her past lovers after she had been with her husband for the first time. He was sweet and skillful, and he seemed to fill her up just right, like their parts had been made for each other. But here and now, Bryan’s thick meaty cock looked quite simply amazing. He began stroking it, moving his hand up and down, and by now her panties were positively soaked. She suddenly found her legs unroofed from the spot and turned away and left as quickly as she could without making a lot of noise or motion, so as not to alert him that she had been there. She hurried back to the guard station, finished her last duties, pinched out, and left. Thankfully, no one else was there to see how red her face was or how awkwardly she raked due to the wetness between her legs. She caught the bus as she regularly did and tried to distract herself with games and social media on her phone as she usually did, but she wouldn’t get Bryan out of her head. He had always been attractive to her, but with that thick and meaty cock, she was beginning to have some very embarrassing thoughts about her “friend.” She unconsciously opened messenger and looked at the last messages they had exchanged a few weeks ago. She so badly wanted to just say hello and see how he was doing, but she did not trust herself. She sat staring at nothing the rest of the ride until she was somehow home without realizing how she got there. When she had her husband alone after the kids were in bed, she showed him a ferocity and lust they hadn’t had together since before their children were born. Afterward, they both lay there exhausted and sweaty, wrapped in each other’s arms. All he could say was “wow. Where did that come from?” She forces a smile on to her face and said “I’d just been thinking about you all day long” and kissed him.