Long time lurker, first time poster. This is a throwaway to maintain anonymity.
Over the past several months, I had been thinking about my ex, wondering how she was, what she was up to and just wanted to know how she was leading her life. She’s Guyanese and I’m Indian. We dated a decade ago in high school for a very brief period, but things ended poorly at that time. We had rekindled some magic in our senior year, but neither of us acted upon it. We went to different universities, and she started up a relationship during the summer before freshman year. Although I did miss her, I thought things were over and went about my first freshman semester living it up.
But interestingly, she reconnected with me during that first semester, and we continued talking throughout it. We spent a lot of time video chatting, a few times a week, and the conversations would become increasingly sexual, incorporating talks about penis size, when/if we were ready to have sex, etc. I didn’t tell her about my one night stands, but she’s a very intuitive person so I’m sure she picked up on it. I eventually decided to go see her at her school, and of course, I botched that meeting, making unwanted and unwarranted advances. She immediately shut me down and told me to leave. I felt so humiliated and was so pissed at myself for being gullible and allowing myself to get led on like that. After that moment, we never got in touch, removing each other off social media and not maintaining any form of communication.