Growing up, I was bookish and kinda nerdy. Not exactly a tomboy (I was still pretty girly) but definitely a girl-nerd, which is hard! I was also not that cute. Chunky, braces, glasses, acne for a while. The whole bit. I was very homely and NEVER the “cute girl.” It all made me kinda shy. I wore mostly baggy clothes – overalls and stuff. Had no idea what to do with makeup. I didn’t kiss a boy until I was 17. Puberty hit me late, and wham – I really leaned out, and even though I developed some nice curves, I was still flat as a board. (And no one could even tell anyway in the clothes I wore.) I wore a bra but honestly never needed one. I felt incredibly insecure about my looks.
Then I went to college (big state school) out of state, and I was determined to make a change. I wanted to be pretty, attention from guys (my sex drive was/is really strong), and I wanted to be confident about it. So I got some girlfriends to sit down and tutor me on makeup, joined [r/MakeupAddiction](https://www.reddit.com/r/MakeupAddiction/), watched YouTube videos. Same with my wardrobe. The weekend I got to school, I basically bagged all of it in the back of my closet and went out and bought some new stuff, even though I couldn’t afford it. Nothing super risque, but more form-flattering. Tighter and sorter. Girly and cute. Lots of skirts.