This happened two weeks ago and I’m still a little upset that I did it. I feel like a whore and wish I didn’t do it, but maybe spilling my guts will make me feel better.
I guess I should describe how I look. I’m 5’4, dirty blonde with blue eyes. Two weeks ago I got out of an abusive relationship where I was constantly berated and humiliated.
I’m fine with that stuff in bed but it was happening outside of the bedroom. I wish I left earlier.
Fast forward a week later I’m an absolute mess of a human being. I can’t stop crying and feeling like it was my fault. I figured I needed to get out and get some fresh air. So, I called a girlfriend to vent and she invited me to a party she was attending. She told me to dress like a snack and attend.i relunctuntly agreed.
I put on my low cut black dress that barely covered my lower thighs and slapped on a long jacket and out I went. I still felt ugly with all the make up but I forced myself to leave. When I arrived I thought she had someone to set me up with but she immediately got tangled with some friends and left me alone.