I [M]38 finally fucked a lifelong friend [F]38

So, as the title says, I finally fucked (and fucked and fucked) a lifelong friend after years of desperately wanting to do so. I’m writing this out because it happened a few weeks ago and I’m dying to talk about it, but don’t want to do so with anyone I know. I apologize for the novel but I have to get this off my chest.

Before getting to the fun stuff, there’s some background that I want to mention regarding how things got to this point. I’m a middle aged guy in my late 30s, average across the board (height, weight, size) who’s been living in my current city for 20 years now. I also have a gf that I’ve been dating for a few years in a mostly-happy relationship. I’ve never cheated and never really wanted to, except when it comes to “A”. A lives in my hometown and I’ve known her since we were about 5. We lived on the same street and were best friends until her and her family moved away, around the age of 11. After that, we lost touch until about 10-11 years ago, when she reached out to me after bumping into my mom and getting my contact info. Since then, we’ve seen each other a few times when I’ve been in town, and have never lost touch even if our communication waxes and wanes. One constant over that time is that I’ve wanted to fuck her brains out since that first time we reconnected in person, and I always suspected she felt the same way but had no proof. Just always got that vibe. Nothing physical ever happened until a few weeks ago as one of us was always unavailable but that didn’t stop us this time.