I consider myself straight and have only ever been interested in relationships with women, but I can’t deny getting turned on thinking about trying something out with another guy. Can’t deny that occasionally when I watch porn my eyes drift away from the beautiful female body and over to the guy’s hard cock, and I imagine gripping it in my hand and maybe, despite how unflinchingly straight I thought I was, slowly putting my mouth on it.
I peruse craigslist late at night, looking at the mostly faceless pictures of male bodies and hard dicks, fantasizing about meeting up with one of them and finding out what it’s like. Eventually I jerk off to a mixture of straight and gay porn and forget the whole thing. I decide it’s not a fantasy I’ll ever act upon. This happens frequently, at least three nights a week. But one night I’m feeling particularly restless and I can’t allow myself to repress the urge with masturbation any longer. I quickly make a new email address to preserve anonymity, and I reply to a few of the posts. I go for the ones with the sanest, most reasonable descriptions, and the ones closest by.