I write this a[f]ter I had an orgasm during masturbating. Yes, I just want to express some thoughts here and need some advice because I feel sad.

22, Asian, 5’7, around 63.5kg, virgin, and straight.

I have never been in a relationship before. I used to be super low self-esteem (like feeling inferior) than the me right now in my teenage years. It was all because I got really bad heartbreak when my high school crush rejected me as I was not skinny, I wore thick glasses, and had a super short haircut (this is because my parents were strict, they didn’t want me to look good in the school, this was to prevent me from having a boyfriend in a young age, so I could focus on my studies and get into university.) which definitely didn’t tick a box on the so-called “Asian beauty standards list”.