Loneliness and I were old friends. I was an ugly kid with a sense of humor. I had tons of friends but no one ever wanted to hold my hand or kiss me. I was surrounded by people yet never felt like I belonged anywhere. Eventually I met a girl and we settled down but the loneliness didn’t pass. I slept alone every night. She rarely touched me. I felt so starved for affection. Even in a dedicated relationship, I felt so lonely.
You were one of the few rays of sunshine in my life. Every Friday, I walked down to the beer store. Drowning my sorrows had become a weekly ritual. However, if I’m completely honest with myself, I mostly came to see you. I was always disappointed whenever there was someone else behind the counter. I really enjoyed our little chats while checking out and you were definitely a sight for sore eyes. I had never met anyone more beautiful than you. You were down to earth with supple curves and long, dark hair. Your pale skin seemed to glow in the neon light of that little store.