As always, sex starts at the asterisks. Let me say, this really happened. I’m as dumbfounded and in disbelief as you will be, trust me.
So I’ve had a submission kink (probably now upgraded to fetish) for years, with intense shame accompanying it. I’ve also been in denial about at least not being 100% straight for years. There’s this one specific Sports poster I had looked at for years which basically informed me I was at least a little attracted to women.
So yeah, all of this has just been frustrating me, on top of the fact that my boyfriend [24M] was completely vanilla, and **seemingly** (foreshadowing is fun) pretty uninterested in sex. So I just went into advice overload mode. I probably posted hundreds of threads on like 20 alts. Nothing ever really changed my situation or view on things. I tried bringing it up to my BF but my shame overtook me, he didn’t understand at all, and I couldn’t explain further.
Then one random night, I posted another advice thread. I saw 1 comment, nothing interesting really, then they messaged me. I like just talking to randoms and she seemed really nice. Which is why it pissed me off when she was just a Bitcoin scammer. So then I took to r4r. Just needed people to vent to. Wasn’t even looking for dirty talk, I promise!!!