I [40M] can’t stop obsessing over wanting to share my wife [38F] with friends [MFM]

The urge has been getting stronger over the years. It’s to the point now where every fantasy I have involves doing something sexy and “wrong” with my wife and other guys. In fact, the closer the friends are to us, the more it turns me on.

About 8 years ago, while out with my (now) wife and best friend, we were drinking at a bar and the topic somehow turned where my wife said “well i have really nice nipples”. I didn’t think much of it other than “man, that was hot”. But then like 2 minutes later, she privately pulled out one tit and said “should i show him?” And before I said “yes”, she called his name and his jaw literally dropped. After she put it away and we talked about it, she immediately said “I can show you guys again?” And then pulled it out again! I was SO turned on, I told her I wanted to go home and play truth or dare or something. She agreed. Before we went home, we stopped at another bar. This time, she called MY name at one point and said “look” and pointed down to here tits. They were both discretely out and my friend’s hand was tweaking one of her nipples. He was staring at me like “dude, i did not initiate this”. It was fucking hot. Then we went to a restaurant together and sat in a bench, wife in between us. At one point they started making out and his hand was going down between her legs but she freaked out and stopped. That’s where it ended. Between the alcohol and the weird situation, she started crying and wanted to leave. She was SO mad at me saying “why would you let him do this to me? Don’t you love me?” It was a shitty end to an otherwise hot night.