[M] My 2nd time with Jess. The girl I can’t stop thinking about.

The first story – https://www.reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/3idkek/m_story_of_my_first_time_have_told_only_a_few/

Please read My first story about this same girl linked above which details my first sexual experience and the beginning of my relationship with “Jess” (“names have been changed…” and all that). This was never intended to be more than just a story about my first time. But now that I’ve written it all out and relived some of the moments it makes me think of many of the times I’ve spent with Jess since then. My feelings toward her are more complicated then I have let myself realize. So maybe this can be a bit of therapy for me while being something interesting and sexy for you to read. I promise there will be less context than the first story and more good stuff (SEX!!).

[M] Story of my first time. Have told only a few people, I think it will feel good to tell this story. After typing all this out, I realize I still love this girl.

I am 32 years old now but was 18 when I had sex for the first time. This story means a lot to me and I don't make a habit of telling everyone all about my sex life. I think it will feel good to tell this story 14 or 15 years later.

I was raised in a conservative home and started to have doubts about a lot of things in high school. So the summer after I graduated I rented a cabin in the Adirondacks to be alone, to hike and to see if I could figure some things out. I had met a girl in the previous year while on a retreat and had exchanged info so I figured I would take a weekend trip to see her now that I was on my own. Now, being a good Christian boy for so long, I didn't know what to expect. I hoped that maybe we would make out or, if I was really honest with myself, that sex would finally happen. I show up for a party at her house – her parents were out of town – and she turns out to be a total B. She ended up with another guy and only said a few words to me the entire night.