TL/DR: tempted to make a previous partner my new fuck buddy / mistress but that wouldn’t be right.
Update: Barbara just sent a nice “how are you” text this afternoon
Names changed to protect me.
After my divorce, I dated multiple people openly and discovered polyamoury (which just seemed to be a buzzword / label for what I was doing).
I had two relationships, one a woman my age who matched up on so many levels especially sexually (Anna), and one in her mid 20’s (Barbara) who was incredibly kinky, a bit more skilled and curvier (much bustier) than Anna.
Anna had no interest in threesomes, Barbara was openly bisexual. Two years ago Anna broke up with me because she didn’t want to be “one of” my girlfriends. Immediately she was who I compared anyone new I dated too, and she was even on my mind when I was with Barbara.
A month passed, and I started and ended a relationship with someone who immediately got possessive even though I was clear in dating multiple people. I began to reflect on what I wanted.