[MF] A favorite memory with my wife in Mexico

If you read my other GWstories posts, you’ll get a bit of a sense for history, but to sum it up, about 7 years ago I got caught after cheating on my wife. It was an absolutely destructive time and there was a lot of work to do. About six months after everything came out, we went on a family vacation with my sister’s family and my mother to a little surf town near Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. My mother, in a fit of generosity, VRBO’d a house that was like something out of Beyonce’s instagram account. I’ve never stayed somewhere so incredible. Open air, with an infinity pool right next to the kitchen overlooking the ocean. It was bougie, we’ll just leave it at that.

As a little backstory, my wife and I had a decent sex life. It was nothing wild and crazy, and certainly didn’t hold a candle to some of the stories here in this subreddit. But it was just fine. Once our kids came along, it seemed like the list of things that were off limits expanded. Doggystyle? out. Nipples and breasts? out. Anal? Definitely out (it always has been). Deep kissing? out. Fingering? out. Oral? Out. You get the picture, things were enjoyable if not pretty vanilla. And while it’s not an excuse in any way, shape, or form, I think the vanilla-ness didn’t help when it came to me cheating. (again, not making excuses!)

[MF] An affair I can’t help but remember – PART 2 [LONG-ISH]

First story [here](https://www.reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/jjycmd/mf_an_affair_i_cant_help_but_remember_longish/). If you’re not into my attempt at Gabriel Garcia Marquez storytelling, jump to **** for the raunchy stuff, you perv.

Again, the upfront warning, this story is mostly buildup and details and less of the gonzo physical. If that’s not for you…no judgment. It’s just that in remembering these stories, what sticks with me is less the exact details of how we fucked and more the details about the emotions and the lead up.

The next day, I packed my bag and left the hotel for my gig feeling deeply, profoundly conflicted. There was still a fog from the three orgasms over the course of the previous 12 hours but, in that strange post-nut clarity that washes over guys, I felt a wave a guilt washing over me. What I had just done I could never undo. Never again in my life could I say I had been faithful to my wife. Never again could I say she was the only one I had ever had sex with. I had just crossed the line and become someone who was a cheater, someone who was unfaithful. I felt gross and ashamed. And I determined it would never happen again. I couldn’t do that to myself and my wife. It was done, it was over.

[MF] An affair I can’t help but remember [LONG-ISH]

This may end up to be half a story, half a journal entry. So if you want a weird mix of sexy times, self deprecation, introspection, confession, and reflection, then hell, maybe this will be for you. This all takes place when I was in my early thirties (I’m 42 now). I was sliding pretty quickly into the depths of my sex addiction. Despite being in a happy marriage I was using porn every day, masturbating multiple times a day, catfishing women online, escorts, strip clubs, rub and tugs…it was snowballing pretty fast. Not proud of it.

I’m a musician (nothing sexy, I play weddings and corporate gigs, so I’m like the bottom of the barrel on the “rock star” scale) and had a gig about 4 hours out of town. I check in to the hotel the client reserved for me, and head out for the night since me gig isn’t until the following day. I pull up a seat in a local restaurant and bar that I had been to on previous trips to that town, and proceeded to eat alone like complete winner. Shortly after I sit down, a group of four women in their early 40’s walks in and asks if they can sit at my community table with me. I agree and we all get to talking. They’re teachers attending a conference and they are apparently interested in drowning the traumatic memories of their classrooms in copious amounts of alcohol. As the night wears on, I match them drink for drink and find myself pretty faded since I’m an utter lightweight.