i [F]18 let a stranger finger fuck me on my flight to europe

backstory:

i’m a US student traveling into europe to do a workaway program. before coming, i did a bit of *cultural research* via youtube. despite speaking half decent spanish, i still wanted to brush up on my vocabulary and get a feel for the social climate. i soon learned that, spaniards especially, have a culture of physical closeness, wherein touching the arm or leg of a stranger or new friend was not uncommon, nor sexual in nature. a very tactile and touchy person myself, this information didnt bother me a bit, and actually excited me a bit. i looked forward to the sense of intimacy that might provide for making new connections. little did i know.

after boarding the last flight in my journey i was beyond relieved. i had missed my layover and spent the last 12 hours meandering the airport in limbo, with my flight ticket reading “standby” and both my anxiety and exhaustion coming to a peak. at my gate i chatted up an american boy, whom ended up giving me his (used, plastic wrapped) pillow & blanket from his previous flight so i could try and get some sleep.

[F]irst time with [M]y new boyfriend

i [f18] need to start by mentioning that i had been talking to this guy, who we’ll call Alex [m19], for a long time. we verged on a long distance relationship for months but had never met in person. we talked about nearly everything but sex went unmentioned through our many hours of phone calls. one night he mentioned that sex made him extremely uncomfortable due to trauma, and he avoided sexual thoughts & masturbation all together. despite my super high sex drive, i wanted to make him feel comfy as much as possible, so i put sexual thoughts of him out of my mind (as best i could) so i wouldn’t get ahead of myself.

fast forward to our first week together. he makes the trip to my house and we spend our days going out, cooking, etc. as one might expect, it was jarring to live with someone i had essentially just met, despite feeling like i knew him well. his shyness and politeness were sweet but did little to generate any sexual tension. slowly but surely our days became more romantic and affectionate, trailing into the evenings.